*✿═══════════════✿* *hand scars* *Part :14* https://mihraskoduvally123.blogspot.com/2023/10/blog-post.html *✿═══════════════✿* https://instagram.com/she.is.dream.maker?igshid=ZGUzMzM3NWJiOQ== https://www.instagram.com/invites/contact/?i=o7hsgxz71i40&utm_content=8ex74zs Many voices in my ears and terrible looks in my eyes were scaring me. Not sure how long he fought them. And when will they all from me?It is not clear whether it is hidden. Life is like an illusion, the days go by and end. As the days went by, the distance between us increased "What are you, Ikka, If asked, "Nothing, I am busy." Although the joy of becoming a father made him very happy, a pregnant woman called me was far away. My wife was far away. I was completely alone My joy and peace left meI felt as if someone was eager to snatch me away. Who needs a girl's tears so much? don't understand "Here, "Um, what? "If we go home tomorrow "Then let's go, the road is bad there. "Um. So that hope is gone. If I go home, if I stay with Oomman and Uppan, I feel that there will be some peace at least... This swelling is unbearable... Now, the road is right Maybe they will be afraid of us!If anything happens to you, full bumpy roads lead to my home... There is a lot of attention in Vavan's case, now he only wants to look at me.... Difficulties "Honey "Um, ntha ika." "Don't you feel bad. "You say no. From that very mouth I heard the reasons for being so far away from me... My heart sank... Those words echoed in my ears over and over again. What about when I get home?It's not a problem when I'm in the church, I feel so tired and feverish, but when I come here, especially when I see our room, I'm tired. It's like a fever, like a fever with no shivering in the wood... I don't understand anything. When you come closer, your smell is so overwhelming, I can't even smell it, it's like I'm going to shiver... Even though it's from the church, when I hear your voice even on the phone, now it's like a peace... I'll make phone callsReduced. I didn't say anything anymore, those words hit me like a thunderbolt... More than my experiences, Ikan's pains made a crack in us, as if I had lost my endurance, as if I wanted to cry... "Hey, why are you silent? "Nothing, what can I say, I should stay at Korachisom's house. If that will be a relief to you... Even though my insides are throbbing, that's how quickly I got it in my mouth. "No, don't worry, NittaLet the delivery be over and everything will be fine. "Um. I muttered a reply and walked out of the room. I took some water from the kitchen and drank it, then sat on the chair. That's when I heard Uman's phone calls from outside the kitchen. "Since she is still here, she is pregnant and you have bought some cash and you have not yet tied her here, how much longer do you have to wait. Fire in my ears here tooIt was the same that leaked out. Suppressing the pain in my chest, I got up and walked away. "Aunty, give me this cake. I slowly stood there at Vallitta's words. Then took that too and walked upstairs. This poor bed is carrying a lot "Here, eat this, put it here. Ika did not say anything, I put it beside Ikak and walked downstairs. To tell you the truth, this house is just a breath of fresh air for meIt's like... a smiling face a comforting word... a place to be calm even if nothing else... when all this is foreign... my sadness, pain and tiredness are all a swell... By the time I had gone down the stairs, I was called from above. "Aunty, Ika is throwing up a bright red color and looks like blood...come and look... "Are you mad...??? I quickly walked upstairs, along with mom Ika was lying down. Umm will be found here. "I can't stand her... What if you avoid it... I can't bear it... Those edges came and fell on my face. "No, I can't bear the fatigue and vomiting when you come. Ya Allah, what is this...Umma smiled at me in front of Iqan's question, I couldn't get a hold of the rope and my mind was caught, I held on to the wall so as not to fall. As if shaking all over... As if darkness entered the eyes... I turned from there and entered the bathroom and closed the doorHe burst into tears, then covered his mouth and cried in case someone heard... I can cry when I'm here, no one will see me, no one will hear me, I cried a lot, Where is my stomach? I remembered my Wawa, I stopped crying when I felt as if someone told me that my pains should not hurt my Omal Kani, I quickly made ablution and came out. What have I done wrong Allah?To hear such things, why is Patachone testing me like this, the Rabbi said, an end to this. How can a woman who has given birth do such a thing, she is also not a daughter, not a sister, not a wife, not a mother, why bring me, who knows nothing, and say that there is no gold. Have I never eloped with them or fallen in love with them? They came and met, liked and got married... and all this... into the LordI also felt as if my arms were rising. Patachon... you can't bear it... like this is beyond me... Ya Allah... give me peace... From somewhere, my father's voice fell on my ears like a wave of wind. What...say, in this scorching heat, as if Allah has blessed us with rain, like it rained in the desert, my father's voice gave me a sore grip and a moment of relief, when I confirmed that the voice was from below.He got up and ran, hugged his father, cried and narrated everything. Uppa told me to call Ikan, I went and called him but he didn't come, Umm Uppad said something as if he didn't know anything. Uppa heard everything, I didn't feel like saying anything more to Uppa. Otherwise, how can I tell you that mom is playing this drama... After some time he did not come down so I called Ikan again. When Ikka asked for a class of water, it was takenI sat there waiting for him. Even though he gave it, he took it and just sat there for a while. When I said it again, he looked at me sharply and then I turned and walked away without saying anything. Ika slowly came down and said something to uncle, but I could not hear it anyway so I stayed away. Dad said to come home and left. Although he called me, I didn't go because of my brother, I don't want a world without him, whether it's happiness or sadness... I'm in the roomI went and cried again and my grief was beyond me. "Hey, I looked up and there it was "Um. "Why are you crying, did I get rid of you, and all these things happen, even the throne of Allah trembles when a woman is divorced." It was said by the situation at that time... we will find a way for everything... never mind.. I said nothing and continued again. "Go and wash your face. I slowly get up and walkstarted with But! My legs discouraged it. I turned back to Ika. "Don't forget what you said, I need you and we need ourselves. "You don't say this and that... Wiping my eyes, I turned around again. *to be continued* *✍🏻mihras koduvally* ▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪ *ISHQE-MADEENA* ◾◾◾◾◾◾◾◾◾◾◾
