*✿═══════════════✿* *hand scars* *Part :16* https://mihraskoduvally123.blogspot.com/2023/10/blog-post.html *✿═══════════════✿* https://instagram.com/she.is.dream.maker?igshid=ZGUzMzM3NWJiOQ== https://www.instagram.com/invites/contact/?i=o7hsgxz71i40&utm_content=8ex74zs I was full of my dreams today. I dreamed that a faceless person came and added something to Ika's food, and when they turned around, it was meVallitha was seen laughing. After eating this, something in the color of blood, just like the one I was crying, has become a mess and I am crying. Still those carrying arms hold me. Unable to move, unable to comfort Ika, I was holding those hands. I woke up in shock and I was sweating all over. I drank water from the nearby jug and sighed.... Is this the first time? Dreams are my lifeJust like eating because of sleep... A short life to love and be at peace with, without many dreams. But that was enough! What will we do if there is a conflict there too? In this day and age, when the whole family does not understand anything and the ways are easy, when they blame me without understanding the truth, at least these people who once loved and made me happy could have thought about it. My ika who is hidingIt was understood that there were unknown games in our life. Those who think when they are separated from nothing, cannot understand where they went wrong. , it doesn't matter if I said it or I thought about it and cried, in short, I can't shut my heart and tongue without changing what's inside. Like the essence of that dream, sometimes I can see illusion walking over the words, that's why Ika's mind turned to stone towards me. Let's call yesterdayHe called me several times, sent me a message and showed me the receipt, but there was no reply Same story today I called again and finally picked up "Hello "Assalamu Alaikum, why didn't you call me?" "Walaikum salaam, nothing, I was busy, are you free?" "Um, Alhamdulillah "And I'll call you when I come. I don't think I'll be here soon. "Um, " Then you said you should call Umm, you didn't call "Um, let's callI can't, Atonda, if you call, you will get relief. Atonda is calling "Um, okay, I'll call you later, Assalamu Alaikum." Wa Alaikum Salam. No matter how busy, Ikay's words are not as sure as they used to be, I could read a whisper of trust and love from that voice, I can understand the change in my Ikkan better than anyone else. And to tell the truth, I am not afraid to call Umman, if he talks to me nicelyI will tell him two more times, I will turn the disk over and put it on me as Ika Paribhava says, that's enough, then I can call you anyway, I don't want to call you guilty, he said. I picked up the phone and called my uncle's uncle to find out the truth. Called Umma and said Salaam and inquired about her well-being. Mother did not speak anything more. Just answered what I asked. Don't worry about meDidn't even ask. Even if I was going to catch a cold after I came there, it could have been just a question. Allah, it is over, Itathas near the house came to see me, playing, laughing and talking, I didn't know that time passed so quickly, everyone should know about the family, what can I say about the family? Nallonam stopped only to fall over, but some doubted and began to questionI have heard that Sis and Umma who are there outside are a bit of a jada, is it true that they are horrible things? "My God, I don't know, I've never felt anything like that, I've never felt anything like that, I'm not a member of that place anymore, so what can I do?" To tell the truth, everyone knows the umman there, only to my family, but before the wedding, no one said anything about this. It's a big lie.Listen, poor thing, that's a relief When the bank of Mahrib started to fill the ears, everyone stopped talking and went to find their own nest, and I took Wuluh and walked to the room. I prayed and read, I was very unwell because my BP was low and I was having problems with gas, and I was very tired. Got up somehowIt leaked a little. Ha what is the speed, the old man came back super even after going there, poor umma saw my condition and made me a very hot dosa, it must have been because it was hot, it didn't come back, I felt some relief, I lay down I made a few calls on the phone, as if I fell asleep just listening to the sound of this sound, it would be good to have a good night's sleep. Ringing but not picked up, it will be busy today Anyway, I went to bed and will call you later Day 4/5I did not even call here, I did not call there, I did not pick up, WhatsApp also shows that it is blocked, the message is not being received. What happened suddenly, I did not send the message, only to be blocked. I kept calling again and again, something finally picked up "Hello, why did you call, do you need anything?" Hearing his question, I was shocked. "Anything is neededDo you want me to call you? "Ha, must "Why are they saying this? How many times have I called you? Why are you hurting me like this? What did I do wrong? "Um, you didn't do anything, you called Umman and heard the dialogue "I said what dialogue, what is it?" "Should I say what you said, just don't call me "Hello, hello At this point, no matter how many times I called her, she didn't pick up. Anyway, she was ready to separate me and Ikan.Let's see, isn't it big? Without money and without property, they considered me as a woman, even though I had the child of that mother in my womb. Now where will this end Rabb.... I will keep calling you as usual, but you won't take it, months have passed and now I am 7 months old, my baby is kicking and tickling from my stomach.His presence alone became alien. Uppa called their house thinking that there are local activities, they are not interested in that, if you want, bring her in the morning and take her in the evening. Gave them. That country walk stopped there, Ika started to forget a lesson about me, even though her family couldn't find Uman's tricks.We soon realized that if we do the same as Umman, then there will be a lot of work, and then He sees that He will act at the right time. He will wait for that time and see how many players will forget him? "Honey "Um, what umm "Why did you hide all this?What was put in, was it said in the first place? Is it so bad that you were there? "I thought that I should say it, but I was afraid that you would say that you are here because you have not suffered so much. "What happened now and then, if you don't say all this, it will be resolved." "Um, I was afraid that I would lose my mother, I don't have another child in my stomach? I don't need anything else, I can go anywhere, I can't do without it, no matter how much I think about it, I don't have itCan't remember anymore. "Don't cry dear, if you had told me earlier, I would have understood you, but now I can't, I have reached there. They delivered, what do we do... "No, Ummm, I haven't done anything wrong, if it didn't happen like this... Don't you see, Patachon, he will do whatever it takes, My moans were rising above words. "Um, don't think about it and cry, the child is bad, anyway, let the delivery take place and then think about it "Hmm. Umma said go, my mindIt was all old memories of Ika loving and caressing me... we told stories and dreams.... Ya Allah, I can't think. Don't you see me, Lord? What a world... This one The slaves of Allah even forget that there is only one Allah I never forget to call you anyway. And not to take it. I was calling I sent a message, didn't see it, how about taking it somewhere? No hanging convictlast wish Take one, please, let me hear that voice.") Ringed and finally picked up "Hello, why are you silent, what did I do wrong?" "Tell me why you called." "I just called you to listen to the sound, why are you silent? Hello, hello, hello." Why are you testing me like this? I can't bear it.Was it sweet? Remembering all that feels like my heart is breaking apart, I called again "Hello, why are you always calling like that?" "What are you saying like this, you want us as a child at least with one mind? "Isn't it after delivery, then let's see. "Why are you so hot, why did you do what I did wrong just for this?" "Stop enough, there is no point in crying, the rest can be said after the delivery.Hello, hello, here it is again, Rabbi, I don't understand anything, just to be like this, there was no problem between us? I haven't even had a chance to raise my voice. Then why did we drift apart, why did my wife hate me, how did my place in that heart disappear? I know that the only people who can answer all this are Ikan's mother and Vallitha.In which sea they will be washed, in which sea the stain will be washed away, the maker of everything sees and will have to answer one day. May the tears of mine and us of blood be shown to him who made them with his life... It should not be said but when it hurts, it comes from the tongue... , no matter how good the times are, what is lost will be counted as a loss. "Honey, Hearing Umman's voice, I quickly wiped my tears. "What, umma? "Let's sit and read today. "No, the dust is in the eye. "Um, listen no matter how much you say, don't cry and do anything to the child," Um. "I will keep silent until I understand the truth, everything will be fine by then and I will cry and cry... "Don't tell me, um, I have no other hope, I can't understand anything, because um is such a good actor at home, so why don't you think like this.... What um, what a sin.Do not "That's all right now, my mole is thinking, Patachon is watching all the acting, so what? "However, Mom does not have any such thoughts, and Mom will block all the ways that I think. On that day, when Ikka got sick, Ikka and Aliyan would not go anywhere together. He had gone somewhere and taken poison that day. Then Umm Young removed those thoughts... forgot all that...I... only I... "It doesn't matter, it's all right, you shouldn't have told me that. "Um. Umma calmed me down, how can I get peace, when my Ikka plays like this, no matter how much I calm it down, the mind does not listen to it, how can the heart be calmed down by keeping the pictures that have experienced the realities rather than the words. "Itatha, Hearing the call of my sister-in-law, I changed the expression of that thought, wiped my eyes, and looked at her.turned around. "What is it, Malu?" "Don't give birth, I want to see the baby." "I will come to Vava after a month. "Um, let me ask you something. "What is it, you ask?" "We're not all that big, baby, we'll be small, just enough to fit this distance... Hi, it'll be fun.... Isn't it like us, wow, where is the head in a full circle? "My question is, "Pandari itatha, where is Vavan's head, these peopleDidn't you say I will call my brother-in-law and ask? "Um, the brother-in-law will take it now, if you call me, I will see you when I come, that's Patachon's surprise. "Well, what do you say? "No, go and play my mole. "Aikote Malu Mindula to Vavan and Itatha." "Ha. The poor old woman whined and whined and went to complain to Oomman, I am a doll and I am a big deal to her, she is a baby sister to me and she has a lot to play with and play with.What kind of chemistry did he have before the wedding, the fun and laughter, everything ended with the wedding, the family was in tears, and everyone was very happy because mine was the first wedding in the family. I am also happy to have an Ikka as my prayer, but ! Experiences shattered many expectations, life became without understanding and adjustment as Mahmood sir of Understarran used to say, Mahmood sir premarital course like me.I have done this but! It's just that I don't remember anything I learned. No matter what you learn and teach without thinking that you should improve yourself, there will be no great benefit. Maybe because life is like this, Mahmood sir's classes are still well remembered, but the new age hides the truths by using magic, witchcraft and poison, and moreover, the enemies are happy if the path to the truths is covered by darkness.Until it is the turn of the soldier watching their movements... "Itatha's phone is ringing" Hey Maluti, take a look and see who it is. Maluti picked up the phone and spoke. "Hello. Then I didn't hear anything. "This is for you, "Um, I'm not on the phone, it's some aunty. "Um I took the phone from her" Hello.... *to be continued* *✍🏻mihras koduvally* ▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪*ISHQE-MADEENA* ◾◾◾◾◾◾◾◾◾◾◾
