*✿═══════════════✿* *hand scars* *Part :15* https://mihraskoduvally123.blogspot.com/2023/10/blog-post.html *✿═══════════════✿* https://instagram.com/she.is.dream.maker?igshid=ZGUzMzM3NWJiOQ== https://www.instagram.com/invites/contact/?i=o7hsgxz71i40&utm_content=8ex74zs Not only the heart but also the eyes are confused by the thoughts. Like a bad pain in the chest, like I can't understand where it's going, what will happen next...When I think about it...I can't forgive the drops of my heart that run from my eyes despite washing and washing. "Ha, just hurry up. Not seeing the rhythm of my washing hands stop, Ika shouted loudly. Stopped washing and walked over to Ikus. As time was running out, we walked into the kitchen at Ikka's insistence. Both were the same. No hunger. No thirst. He took some rice and drew it on the plate for some time. howAfter eating, he went to his room and slept. Even after lying down, the pain in my mind didn't subside, Ikayanekil fell asleep by the time he lay down. Suddenly, thoughts came to me, and this distance that came to me was always a question mark for me, a question that flew in my mind without an answer. Even as I started to get the answer, my heart sank. How can you tell this to someone... will you believe that it is your own mother who is cooperating with your sister and made it like thisSay it's done? The estrangement that came for no reason and then said that I have made my sister a bad woman, and then there is no estrangement with a reason, then that will only make umma a fertilizer. In any case, I alone will be crucified here. Whatever it is, everything is like destiny... It is easy for everyone to say that you should not skip sleep, you should eat, and no one can change the pain of the mind.Tears do not allow one to cry, and when sorrows tear the heart, there is no other way than to hide the fact that the child is a child in the mind, because the tears often do not touch the heart. "Don't you get up, it's good morning, there's no Tahajjud today, what's wrong with you, dear?" I have not even known the wank in sleepless thoughts. Except when I called... Ya Allah, I didn't know it was this timeGetting up and praying, I went downstairs and drank some black tea because my head was so heavy due to frequent sleepless nights. Uppa also gave tea and came upstairs. Move away from him and lay on the ground, will it be less difficult when I give him close? And today at least Ika wants to see Umm coming to the room and looking at me, so it is better for me to lie on the floor.Those eyes appeared, Ika turned away from the bed and I think I saw those eyes, I fainted a little with relief. Then when he opened his eyes, Ika was gone. He quickly got up and walked towards the kitchen. He ate all the work and sat down a hundred times between each work, but there was no one here to see or help him. If you want to see Umman here, you must be there or below. Or listen to their soundWill come running. Ahhh... Ika walks into the room to call Ikkan for tea and Ika puts the iron on "Hey, the tea has been taken. "Um, come on, then why did you lie on the ground, mom scolded me. "I thought that when you have me around, you don't have to feel tired or cold. " I said I put you on the ground mom,… … I didn't say anything, I was surprised when I finished saying this without any emotion. Although it is not pinned, the world is pressed and closedWithout even thinking about how mom saw through the door... I didn't think that you would behave so thoughtlessly, open the closed door and search for details in your son's room. This poor man didn't ask for that, poor man, he is taking advantage of it. "Hey, why are you silent?" "Nothing, what can I say?" "Didn't I tell you about my difficulties, then why did you lie on the ground? "Nothing, I thought for a while. Then I am the reason for youThought it was tired and dry. "Um, no more of that. "Um. I hummed in response and sighed as I turned and walked away. Life has become a terrible story, like a novel written and read by someone somewhere. Ya Allah... That's it, Patachone, show me the insides of this umman. How long can I be alone like this? I know you won't do anything but Khair, but please stop this magic and prove the truth to me and them as soon as possible.O Rabbe... Amen Ya Rabal Alameen.. Alas, the pain of the mind and the pain of the body, I am suffocating, please solve this... My uncle's face was visible inside when I was shaking with grief. If I went to him for a couple of days, it would have given me some relief. Again... in any case, no matter what you say, let's ask.. if you agree... I slowly went and stood next to Ikan. Ika looked at me and went back to the phoneChanged the eye. I stood very close. "Let me go home. "What now?" "Not one, not a lot, maybe two days later. "Um, I'm a bit busy so I can't leave. You call someone and go. "I will tell you to come. "Um, Ah, it hasn't been 4 months, you are ready, you can come after taking the injection. Don't go there and come back now. "Um, come on, I called uppakmaLet me tell you. I called uppa and told him that he will come. I took the dress and put it there. I will not take any dress for two days and I will come there the next day. Ika smiled at me. I saw that smile after some time. Somewhere deep inside there is love for me but something seems to be holding Ika back from expressing it. It can't be like this. So We areUmm was hesitant to go with Vallitha to go to the hospital to get the injection and let us go out alone. In a good strategy, Itatha went with us. On the way to get the injection, I said that I need avil milk. She bought good avil milk from a road-side fuel cart. It came back faster than it went into the stomach. I got out of the car and sat under a tree. Tears started coming from the eyes. Oh, it wasn't meant to be. Alone this mIf you see people suffering like this, come here... "Ha, enough to go home, Ikan's words hurt me a lot. Instead of consoling one... I'm thirsty, I'm afraid to drink more water... By the time I turned to ask Ika for water to wash, Ika had said that and walked away. I called out as softly as I could. "Give me some water, I hate my hands and feet to get it thereas, Ika looked back and brought some water. I washed my mouth and sat in the car. No one said anything. I used to look out for people coming home. When I reached home, uncle was waiting for me, so we ate and said goodbye to everyone and we went down. "You row. "If you go, after two days, I will come and call you. "Um. This is what Ika said when I called her. When I saw that face, I felt that I should not go. My uncle had no mindI thought that I shouldn't have called him. As if Ikan's face was covered with worry, Ikan took me in the car and stood aside. I could read the worry of my departure in that face, but I felt that a change was necessary from here to get forgiveness for my pains. It's a pain to even think of a home that is no longer there. Ika is also standing here watching the movement of our car. Something hurts inside me, when will I come here? Randisam... I cried till I reached home without seeing my fatherwas going An uncontrollable sadness... something... pains bigger than what I have, as if they are tied somewhere in me,,, or coming closer to me... Ika's face is clear in the eyes. Seeing Ikka standing there, I couldn't stand something, I had to go now, I called my uncle and he came. I feel like I didn't need anything, I don't know how I could stay at home without it, but when life becomes a debt storyShouldn't we crash on that stage? "Dude, hey." "Ha, I didn't know until I got home. When dad called me, I quickly got down and walked home, thinking about it one by one, now I am in a different world now full time. Assalamu Alaikum Warahmatullah. "Wa Alaikumsalam" Molle Ntei Mon Vala Kath. Ummm because I don't see her. "Umma said I can come after two days. "Um come on, isn't it Rahat? "Umm, Alhamdulillah, I want to hug Umman and cry, butNo one has informed me about anything, so let my pain stay inside, I need to call. I picked up the phone and called. He said Salaam, inquired about my arrival and the details here and there. Hearing this is a peace. You are telling me to take care of me even if I am not around. I will come after two days, then I will call youK hung up the phone. My Ikan's voice is always a comfort to me, even if only for a while, the words have the magic to chill me so much. "Honey, are you tired? Umman's question woke me up from here. ". Um, can't eat anything, can't smell or taste anything, and by then I'm shivering. "Um, after 3/4 months there will be some relief and everyone will have moles too, never mind. Sometimes it will be okay after a while. Come teaLet's drink. "Umm, I don't need it, I have a bad headache, let me lie down. "Um, but let's drink after a while, Mol, lie down and wake up. I closed the door and lay down, cried loudly and put the fan on full speed so that no sound would go outside the room. But let's call it one thingEven if I cry or laugh a lot, his voice gives me a warm feeling. The phone rang a lot and I didn't pick it up, I must have been busy with something and then I will call. I wiped my face well, walked from the room towards the kitchen, as if I blinked, I couldn't see anything. Slowly I sat on the chair in the kitchen. "What's wrong with your face, baby, did you cry like this? "Hey, why are you crying mom, that must be why you have a headache. "Umm, then mom didn't ask anything but that face looks like it's withered. I didn't say anything, ummm, it's like I doubted something, maybe I heard you cry. "Honey, "Um what is it umm" "There will be many problems in life and you should act as if you don't see some of them. "I don't have any problem, ummm... I have a headache. I can't sleep now. It's night." " Ah I said in general. After studying 10th standard ParikIt is easy to write and win if we put our minds to it, but! Life is not like that, no matter how much we learn, we forget some things to write where we should write and read where we should read. "Um, I don't have a problem with my glasses, it's like having a headache on my face. "It will be, I told my mom. "Um" Then, my poor fellow, Patacha may pray to Rabb that the love between you never dies, that you are not hurt by the hands of Iblis...Ok Khair. "Um. "Whosoever hath afflicted us shall give them strength, and none shall be able to prevent it. He alone is the Giver, the Giver, the Giver, the Giver, and the Giver." I quickly got up and walked away so as not to continue Umm's words, I hummed and said that I was very tired and I slowly tapped the wood.I read and understood, Lord, please show me the way to find a solution for this without anyone knowing about it, Lord, let what Allah has joined together not be broken by the hands of Satan. *to be continued* *✍🏻mihras koduvally* ▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪ *ISHQE-MADEENA* ◾◾◾◾◾◾◾◾◾◾◾
