touching the prohibited : scaramouche

take a chance with me

twenty seven

take a chance
with me.

scaramouche stood in front of me, the streetlights flickering as it bought light upon us. just like how we first met. the streets were a lot more silent this time, and only the crickets could be heard. and this time, both of our eyes glistened with loneliness. but mine was due to his absence, his? i didn't really know.

"what is it?" i asked, breaking the silence. a smile appeared on his lips, one that would instantly make me fall all over again.

"why did you leave?" he asked, walking a little closer to me. i didn't leave, maybe my mind was too focused on the way my heart was beating a little too fast for my liking, or how i felt a little too conscious on how i looked and acted around him.

i stared at him, and he did too. "you were being annoying." i just said, yet i knew well that wasn't all. he was far more intolerable because i hated how he made me feel.

his indigo hair shined as the lights flickered. "just go inside, i'll leave its cold here." he scanned my body before looking away. it was definitely cold, especially with just my shirt, and shorts. but the next thing i knew was the fact that his denim jacket landed on my shoulder and that his face is a little too close for my comfort. "here wear this.." he spoke, whispering the end of the sentence.

god i wanted to kiss him.

and before i took the chance, he did. he leaned in, only a little distance away from my lips. breathing and not breathing as my hearts beating so much faster than before. he's so close. i can't feel myself anymore, not the coldness, not the emptiness of the streets because i could've sworn, right now, all i needed was him. "please"

and then we kissed. it wasn't long, but it wasn't necessarily short either and god did he kiss good. however, the problem comes after that, i didn't know what to tell him, nor did i know what to do.

"you kiss well." he said. looking away as he started to walk towards my dorms once again, and the whole walk was silent. my cheeks a little too red for my liking, and my fingers fidgeting a little too much.

when we arrived, i finally got the courage to say something and that was, "bye, stays safe on your way home" before running towards my dorm. i couldn't sleep that night.