Your Losing Me

Chapter 14

Blake will probably be a semi normal character from now on because she gives off comforting vibes imo

Charlie POV

"That's why your always in long sleeves..." the curly haired woman mumbled softly making me nod. "Yep. I um, you saw them once. The cuts. A long time ago. I don't think you even knew who I was." The words came out before I could think it through. There'd been one time, months before Sydney or Taylor found out. "I did?" Blake asked, confusion evident. "Yeah. I was in my dressing room, having my usual breakdown. I think you thought my dressing room was Taylor's. I was changing out of my outfit and had sweats on. I'd um, just done it. And you barged in. Immediately I hid the blade but you could see the ends of cuts above my waistband. I don't think it registered with you what it could've been. Or what it was. You were talking about something. I don't remember what. You thought I was Taylor. When you finally looked up you started apologizing profusely. Obviously I waved you off and said it was totally fine. Then you saw the marks. You got really worried and asked what they were, asked if someone was hurting me. I lied and told you that it was my costume. I still am shocked you believed me." Blake's face dropped. "You-your the crying girl. Oh my god. Your hair was flat ironed right?" I nodded. "That's why I couldn't ever figure out who you were. I was gonna tell Taylor. But when I started trying to find your name I didn't find anything. You never posted your face online. And any photos I could find you hair was natural which messed me up. I can't believe I didn't realize that the marks were self harm. I'm so sorry." The woman spoke fast, clearly anxious. "It's okay. No one knew. I was able to lie my way out of someone did find out. Until Sydney." "And me." Taylor suddenly spoke up, making me jump slightly. "Yeah...but anyway, I um, I guess I'm asking if you'll help me?" Cringing internally I let the sentence slip out, holding Taylor's hand tightly. "Of course I will Charlie. Though, I don't really know how to help." "It helps a lot knowing that someone else knows and cares other than Taylor." Blake nodded and smiled softly before asking "can I ask questions?" Which I nodded "How longve you been doing it?" "Years." The word tasted bitter on my tongue. Years. Remembering the tour I bit my lip

-Flashback (this is Fifth Harmony tour bc I can)

Sighing I bandaged my new marks, pulling my hoodie down and getting ready to leave when the band knocked at my door. After I hid the blade I answered the door, unaware of my blood stain on my pants. As the girls and I spoke Lauren leaned in "Mija you've got some blood on your pants." She whispered softly which made me panic. Though I knew they assumed it was period blood it was most definitely not. Shit.

"I've done it on tours. I did it on a tour with Fifth Harmony and Ariana's tour. For years I've been doing it on and off."

Hi! Fifth Harmony was one of my old hyper fixations so I wanted to add that. Suggestion? opinion?

-Brooklyn