GAH DAMN, WHY ARE THEY SO CONTROLLING ESPECIALLY MY MOM. I RESPECT HER ALOT, BUT HOLY SHIT, WHY DOES MY FOLKS GOTTA NITPICK EVERYTHING I DO. I HAVE SELF-AWARENESS. IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF LISTENING, CUZ NO ONE WANTS TO LISTEN. WHENEVER I HAVE OUTBURSTS IT'S ALWAYS SOMEONE LEAVING ME ALONE OR TELLING ME TO SHUT UP. PLEASE I JUST WANT SOMEONE WHO I COULD BE VULNERABLE TO, SOMEONE WHO WOULDN'T LEAVE ME ALONE WHEN I EXPRESS. WHY ARE YOU A FUCKING GUIDANCE COUNSELOUR, A FUCKING PSYCHOLOGIST DOING THIS TO YOUR OWN DAUGHTER THEN EXPECT HER TO BECOME MENTALLY STABLE, AND CARRY HER OWN EMOTIONS AND BE THE PERFECT DAUGHTER YOU EXPECT? LIKE FUCK THIS, ALL MY LIFE, I'VE BEEN DEPRIVED OF FUN, I'M ALWAYS STUDYING EVEN THOUGH IT'S NOT WHAT I WANT, AND ALL MY LIFE I'VE BEEN GASLIGHTED THAT ALL IM GOOD AT IS STUDYING, WHEN ALL MY ACADEMIC ENCOUNTERS HAVE JUST CRUSHED ALL MY SELF-ESTEEM AND FUCK I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO LISTEN TO ME. I JUST WANT TO VENT TO SOMEONE WITHOUT THE FEAR OF LEAVING ME, OR KNOWING THAT THEY'LL JUST BRUSH MY FEELINGS OFF? WHY CAN'T ANYONE BE THAT FOR ME? WHY IS EVERYTHING MY FAULT? EVEN THOUGH I TRY SO HARD, WHY CAN'T MY PARENTS BE ACTUALLY GOOD, BECAUSE THEY'RE GIVING THEMSELVES SO MUCH CREDIT. WHY? IF THEY'D JUST UNDERSTAND ME, THEN MAYBE I WOULDN'T BE SUCH AN ATTENTION SEEKER OR AN OVERSHARER. FUCK IT.....
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A Writer's Block
RandomThis is where I rant because I don't want to bother people. They'll just tell me things that will worsen my thoughts on myself. I'm tired of people offering comfort, only to shit on you when you ask for it, and that is what became of this book. Mf r...
