OH FOR FUCKS SAKE WHY IS IT ALWAYS WHEN I FEEL CONTENT IN MY LIFE, MY PARENTS HAVE TO RUIN EVERYTHING AND ALWAYS MAKE ME FEEL MISERABLE. ALWAYS BOILING DOWN MY CLEAR DISTRESS TO "WHINING" WHY WOULDN'T I. I HATE THIS. AND I BET THE NEXT DAY THEY'RE JUST GONNA TELL ME "WE LOVE YOU OKAY?" "YOU'RE WORTH IT" AS DAMAGE CONTROL. THEY SAY THEY DO LOVE ME, BUT WHY WHY AM I LIKE THIS? WHY DON'T I FEEL IT? WHY DO I HAVE TROUBLE CONNECTING WITH PEOPLE AND YET I LONG TO BE LOVED? WHY AM I NOT NORMAL TO BEGIN WITH.? WHYYY???? THE FACT I HAVE TO OVERSHARE THIS TO THE INTERNET RATHER THAN TELLING THEM SAYS ALOT.
THEY'RE JUST MAKING ME HATE MYSELF EVEN MORE. I DON'T EVEN LOVE MYSELF TO BEGIN WITH. AND THEY'RE JUST GONNA TRY TO REASSURE ME WITH LIES, WHEN THEY PROBABLY DON'T EVEN MEAN IT. IF I REALLY MEANT SOMETHING TO THEM, THEY'D UNDERSTAND ME, AND NOT JUST DISMISS ME AS A WHINER. THEY EVEN DIRECTED THE FAULT AT ME, I'M LITERALLY JUST HELPING MY BROTHER INSTEAD OF MEMORIZING FOR MY TEST. WHY ARE THEY LIKE THIS? I HATE IT I HATE IT. I'M SO STRESSED OUT AND I HAVE SO MANY THINGS ON MY MIND AND THE BEST THEY CAN DO IS JUST BREAK ME RIGHT NOW WHYYYYYYY WHYYY WHYYY FOR FUCKS SAKE I HATE THIS .
I wish my dog was still here, but they really hate me, don't they? They probably just used him being the reason why the house is so messy so they can send him off. I really miss him though. I wish he was still here, who I can hug and comfort me. He understands me better than most other humans do... I hope he's happy where he is right now, and they take care of him.
Fuck...
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A Writer's Block
RandomThis is where I rant because I don't want to bother people. They'll just tell me things that will worsen my thoughts on myself. I'm tired of people offering comfort, only to shit on you when you ask for it, and that is what became of this book. Mf r...
