Sweet, sweet nightmare (Enmu Angst)

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Yeah, yeah, not everthink fits in the describtion, when you can only use a max from 2000 Words, so i made a little chapter, bevor the Storie begins

Collei-san helped me with it^^
She made the cover too:>

As you could tell and read, it is a Angst Storie, so therefor, i need to make something clear
This storie as sensitiv themes like
-mentall illness
-self hurting and injures
-scars
-sadistmus and masomistmus
-su1z1del thoughts and behavior
-tortue, mostly mentall tortue
If you cannot handle it, i am sorry but please, do not read it
I do not wanna trigger something, that is bad for you
So reading on youre own safety^^"

Now a little explaination, that are important^^
It is a Swap Au, so there might be some changes, that you can't really understand
First thing first
The Roles that are Swap and that are important for this Storie are
Enmu with Mitsuri
Nakime with Obanai
Akaza with Rengoku
Ubujashiki with Muzan
Therfore, since Mitsuri and Obanai are canon, i made the Ship in this Au with Enmu and Nakime and they actually are somehow cute together

There will be also Akaza's Mentor and yeah, Enmu is or were the Tsugoko of Akaza

The most important Person in this Storie is Enmu since most of the time, we view it from his point of view. How he sees the world. There will be view changes, since his is kinda twisted and confusing, but i will market it so.

There are also some things you need to know
1)
He was a former Wind-breathing-style user but he could not kill Demons, so therefore he creates his own style
Dream-breathing wich is swordfight combined with hypnose
2)
He is not strong enougn to kill demons, but he is agil and fast
He is as fast, as a train, wich is a refferenz that he fused with a train in the original
3)
He sleeps very often
Since he has something to do with sleep, i could imagine that he was or is a sleepy person himself, who could sleep all day and still be tired
It's hard to wake him up too, cause most of the time ten seconds later, he sleeps on the floor
4)
He has a sphynxcat called Yume
It is a referenz to what Enmu was at the end of his life and sphynxcat are the closest living thing to his last form
5)
I headcanon him as pan
He does not care about gender
He likes the big muskels or the one, who seems like, they could and would kill him
He does not care, who loves him, he wants to get choked down and be put in his places
Most of his curshes are lust, he truly loves one person
So yeah, his masomistmus affetcs is love and lust life
Yet, he is still a virgo
Most don't really like his phantasize
6)
No, i do not think, he has depression
If he wish to d1e or shows su1z1del thoughts and behavoir, than it's mainly because he thinks at this moment, that he is trapped in a nightmare and you can escape a nightmare if you d1e, so in solution, he simply tries to wake up, not realizing that he is not asleep
7)
His masomistnus is half due do his enjoyment and half due to the fact that he tend to looses touch of reality and his body so he needs sometimes a proof to know he is still alive
It is canon, that Enmu could not feel any pain but later he could, so i think thats because he got killed, when he has his phase, thats why he does not feel pain but rather enjoyment cause his view was more twisted

I change is backstorie, so he stays as one of the good ones
Bevor he turned 18, his whole village died due to a demon. At first, he enjoys it, how everyone dies brutaly infront of him, including his parents, until he realized, it was not a dream. Of course, deep down it traumatizes even him but got mixed up with his other feelings. He got to his mentor, an old man and the former wind-hashira, who trained and raised him from 10-16. As he made the final selection, he got k.o and his mentor died. After that, he halluzinayed terribel for the first time, till he breaks down. After this, he has a serious memory lost and trains with Akaza amd fights demons, bevor becomimg a hashira himself. His symptoms got a even biggerproblem, the more he fight against this creatures

Since he promised his mentor, to protec to weak and not hurt other people and he is not sure, if he is even proud. He fights on the Slayer Corps fight to make his mentor proud

Other things, you need to know
If i make a mistake with my gramar, please pardon me
I did not try to disrespect youre native and or mother language
If you see my account, i am originaly and currently live in german, so english is just a second language^^"

It has a little lgbtq+ stuff and fluff, due to my headcanon, but also a little homophobia since it is in the 1912, were man×man is not tolerated or seen as something natural
They not hating him for his nature, cause were talking about Enmu, so they not surprised, that he his a little bit off
His entery behavoir is odd and special, so who cares that he seems to like men too?
At the end, he is in love with a woman,but still pan

No, i do not romantice tortue or mentall illnesses at all
It is not cute and or quirky and i honestly find it weird to do it, so i won't to it
His zestyness as nothing to do with his mental health
His masomistmus could but it's hard to tell, were it comes from
It is sometimes a kin from him and sometimes a burden
Mentall illness also makes no one edgy or something like that
Enmu and everyone who suffers from one,were just unlucky
With this storie, i just wanna share, how i think happen, if Enmu was an Demon Slayer
If you have a mentall ilness
I hope, you get the help, you need

Hope that's going to answer some questions and were moving on to the storie^^
Have fun and enjoy it:3