after everything happened at the airport, i only talked to matt a few times. i don't know if this is wrong but im mad at him for kissing me, the minute i have to leave to live in another state.
when i landed i immediately called summer and basically freaked out. she was freaking out with me. she told me chris and nick were in shock when he pulled me in, which i was too. it's not like matt to pull anything like that.
he hasn't talked to me about it, but i know im going to have to bring it up because he's insane if he thinks we're all good. i've been dry with him over text, i know he isn't stupid so he realises what im doing he's just not doing anything about it.
i just got back from my classes today. my first class was at 9 and my second class was at 12.
my dorm was nice for a dorm. my roommate kennedy was cool and she was barely there since she was mostly at her boyfriends apartment. so i basically had the whole dorm to myself half the time.
twice a week i visit my dad. he lives a little bit outside of the city, so i have to get a train which is surprisingly calming.
today was friday and my dads new team had a game. he invited me to it and told me i could bring a friend. i invited kennedy and she agreed to go with me which i was definitely grateful someone is coming along with me. i did not want to sit alone at a hockey game.
there's nothing wrong with being alone but my limit would be a hockey game alone.
my phone buzzed against my duvet.
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tate larson summer incoming🤭 summer🪽🫧 made this groupchat so we can all talk🤗
i laughed and tapped onto the notfication.
tate larson summer incoming🤭
summer🪽🫧 made this groupchat so we can all talk🤗
i miss you all😖😖
chris how is college?
college is actually not that bad, i now take daily selfies who have i turned into😕😕😕
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me on the way to class
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me last week when the rain drenched me😍
nicky YUPPPPPPPP
counting down the days until i see you guys(it's been 3 weeks)
josh how's your dads new team
good so far i think!!! i'm going to a game tonight so we'll see
summer🪽🫧 I MISS US ALL TOGETHER
same :((( summer is so soon guys!!!!!!!!
matt🩵 looks fun
summer🪽🫧 anyways ur roommate BETTER not replace me🥰🥰
of course not baby xo i have to get ready to leave for my second class of the day talk soon guys i love youuuuu😇
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my dad got me to come earlier than the game so he could introduce me to the team. he warned me before to not develop any type of feelings for one of the players, which made me laugh in his face.
"boys this is my daughter tate," my dad introduced me. "hi," i gave all the boys a small smile. "mr larson, i didn't kn-" "do not finish that sentence," he warned. the boys erupted into laughter. the boy who made the comments cheeks quickly heated up from embarrassment.
i sat down next to kennedy before the game started.
"are you excited?" she asked. "i have no idea what im feeling!" i gulped my drink down. "i mean you do have a thing for hockey players," she nudged me. i glared at her. "enough!" "i'm not going near any of the guys on the team, firstly my dad would kill me and secondly im still not over matt, well i know it hasn't been that long," "but he's pissing me off so i might just might keep my eye out for one of the players." i joked. kennedy smiled. "im so glad my boyfriend plays football."
after the game which was a tie, i headed back to my dorm. kennedy didn't follow me, she unsurprisingly went back to her boyfriends.
i looked down at my phone that was buzzing against my bed.
matt🩵 incoming call accept|decline
i sighed before pressing accept.
"hey," matt's voice came from my speaker. "hi matt," i looked out my window.
"how's school?" he asked. "school is good,"
"what's wrong?" "what do you mean what's wrong matt?" "did you forget what you did at the airport before i left" i snapped. he sighed. "i know tate, im sorry, i really have no idea what came over me,"
there was silence.
"i have no idea what else to say, it was stupid and selfish, i just missed kissing you," his voice became softer. i groaned. "matt, i um-" "i have to go, someone knocked on my dorm door, i'll ring you back." i lied right through my teeth. "okay." he spoke before hanging up.
i took a deep breath before falling onto my bed. why me. why is this situation so difficult. i'm being difficult, matt's being difficult. it's so messy.
