Her Secret Agent

Nine

Emerald's Pov

Hearing Natasha say she wants to talk made mr whole body tense up because i know she has a lot of questions and to be honest i knew this talk would happen just not right now since im in hospital. I don't think anyone would be ready to have a conversation like this with their soulmates, especially if they have been through something like i have. I know this conversation is going to be emotional on my part, and it's probably going to make Natasha feel so many emotions, so it would be better if Peter wasn't here in case we woke him.

I pressed the button Bruce told me to press, and when he came in, i asked him to take Peter to his room, which he did without asking questions, which I'm grateful for. Natasha closes the door and comes back over to me, sitting on the bottom of the bed by my feet and putting her hand on my leg. I take a deep breathing, needing all the strength i can for this conversation because i don't know if this conversation will end well or not. I push myself up so I'm sat up to give Natasha as much of my attention as i can and she looks at me worried but no matter what condition i am in she will always get every ounce of my attention.

"You. I-I." She says, looking down

"It's okay, Natasha. Just take your time. There is no rush in this. You can ask me anything you want but at your pace." I saod softly

"You lost so much. How did you survive." She said sadly

"The truth is. I didn't survive. The day i lost my angel and my best friend, the whole world stopped spinning. A part of me died and will never come back. Every day every night, i look up at the sky to make sure they are still watching me because just the thought of them not watching has me wanting to drink and hurt myself again. Before i met you, they were my hope. They were my light. So i didn't survive. I was living for them, not myself." I said, closing my eyes

"Why couldn't you have children yourself? Why did your friend have to carry your baby?" She asked, confused

"I-I fuck." I said closing my eyes

"You don't have to answer that if you dont want too." She said softly

"I'm intersex, Natasha. I have a female body except i have a dick instead of a pussy. That's why my friend suggested surrogacy. She was going to help me live my dream of being a mother when i thought i didn't have a soulmate." I answer her, keeping my eyes closed

"You're intersex!?" She said, sounding shocked

"Yes." I whisper

"That explains a lot of things, actually." She said, sounding like she put a puzzle together

"What!?" I asked, looking up at her

"That explains why the toilet seat was always up when i used to common restroom after you and you really should put the toilet seat down." She said, sounding amused

"Yes, ma'am." I said with a small smile

"If i didn't accept the bond, would you have rejected me?" She asks emotionally

"Never. I would have waited and waited no matter how much it would have hurt because just like me, you have a hard past. You had to figure things out on your own without my interference or my presence." I said softly and honestly

"I hurt you, didn't I?" She said sadly

"Not at all. Don't think that, darlin. You could put me through hell, and you would never hurt me because a relationship is never easy. If people think a relationship is easy, then their relationship is fake. I want a true, messy, happy relationship with you. I want something true. I want us to argue and fix everything after an argument, i want us to go through up and downs while holding onto each other. I want us to look back at our lives and say we made it. I want us to be old and grey watching our children grow and start a family of their own. I want it to just be me and you against the world." I said, smiling at her

"I can't have children." She blurts out as tears roll down her cheeks

"You might think you can't, but darlin. I have the ability to make a family with you. Whatever happened in your past, no matter how bad or horrifying it, was happened for a reason. It happened because we are fated. If having children was taken from you, then me having a dick means something. If i am wrong, then i will beg on my knees in front of loki to see if he has a spell for us to be able to have children of our own." I said, trying to explain my abilities the best I can, but being high on pain medication is difficult

"You're saying we were made for each for a reason. Are you willing to try and go through the pain of losing a child again if this all goes wrong." She asked with tears rolling down her cheeks

"Darlin. I will go through every pain imaginable to have a family with you because i know how much we both want this. We can try as many times as you want until i see you barefoot and pregnant because nothing is going to stop me from giving you the life you have dreamed of." I said, smiling big

She didn't ask me another question. Instead, she slowly and gently crawled up my body, put a spare pillow on my stomach, and then lay down on top of me, putting her face in my chest. I kissed her head and played her hair, feeling her relax under my touch. I frown, hearing her mumble something into my chest, but I couldn't quit hear what she said.

"What was that, darlin?" I asked softly

"I Natasha Romanoff accept Emerald Clover Barton as my soulmate." She said loudly against my chest, making me tear up

"I Emerald Clover Barton accept Natasha Romanoff as my soulmate." I said, kissing her head as tears roll down my cheeks