Catching Feelings.

Miserable At Best

Katie, don't cry, I know
You're trying your hardest
And the hardest part is letting go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright
And when we look to the sky, it's not mine, but i want it so

Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
I know he's there and
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
while across the room, he stares
I'll bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best

You're all that I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I could give
Is everything you couldn't take
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay

Because I know I'm good for something
I just haven't found it yet
But I need it

So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
I know he's there and
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
while across the room, he stares
I'll bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best

Ladada ladada ladadaoh ohhh

And this will be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
It's been three whole days since I've had sleep
Because I dream of his lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I'm not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly

So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
I know he's there and
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
while across the room, he stares
I'll bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you
But without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you
Oh, without you I'll be miserable at best

Miserable At Best - Mayday Parade.

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*Zayn's POV*

I am falling.

My ears are full of rushing; I have been sucked into a tunnel, a place of pressure and chaos. My head is about to explode. 

It's a dark pit. Sempiternal, quite, dark, endless. And right there at the horizon, I see her face. Selfsame, resplendent, just as it has always been. She is pulchritudinous. She is beautiful. 

 But she is not yours anymore.

And that was the truth.

I have lost her in my fight against fate, in my fight against the world. I have been burried there, lying cold under their feet as they dance happily over my broken heart.

And now I am thrown into a new battle. A battle against my demons, and yet again, I am losing a part of my existence in the war against myself. And my grip is getting loose; I'm losing hope, and I am slowly fading away.