Unforgettable

Episode 7

I wake up with some stress..

I did not even know where I was. I know it was stupid but I woke up on the couch which I thought I would wake up and Eric's lap though he wasn't there with me.
He left so I'll be hundred percent honest, we both are messed up, we always good to each other and we just do it like it's  sooo predictable,sometimes I think -why am I responding to his touches ,to his adoration of my body, of me personally like every time he comes near me, he always impresses me with something new and I accept him do those things which is unreal..

I know I'm a very weird ass girl and I always act stupid and when Eric told me that he loves me I didn't understand at first but then I went with it even though I did not respond to what he told me. I was speechless. I could not get an answer. He made an effort  which I respect that, but I never understood why would he keep that from me? I mean was that for a long time that he kept it from me? Was it just for fun?

I looked on the sides, but there was no one in the room so I went upstairs in my room. I cleaned it and then I took my clothes and left the house. I went to school. I know there weren't any classes but as I knew that most of the time, the theatre is open until 8pm.

I entered the theatre and saw the teacher speaking to Liam and some other students.

I thought it would be cool to check up on them and as soon as they all saw me , the teacher told me about the up coming show he wants to make and who to dance and do all that type of stuff..

Everyone was engaging in the conversation and I felt so weird but I thought about living so quickly got at the back of the theatre and left, by the time , I went around places but as soon as I got to the bus station,  I waited peacefuly and the girl came too, she sat next to me, a bit far away while  waiting for the bus..

We both got in the same bus and I went upstairs and sat down. The girl sat 3 seats away and  her phone rang, it was loud, she responded and mysteriously Lucas's voice was on the speaker, speaking with such lovely attitude towards that girl. The disrespect i felt from him was imense.

I never knew  Lucas was a traitor. A person with no heart and it hurt me so badly ,I wanted to burst in tears in that  stupid bus but had fucking keep myself quite and nice.

The next station , I left the bus, I did not know where I was, I was too lazy to go back home , it was at least better alone for some time. It was too much to handle.

You know, just wondering through the neighbourhood and it was calm but my heart wasn't calm at all, I was in pain. I felt so bad, I wasn't sure if it was my problem but felt like it was. Even I could not breath well, I was coughing and I wanted to cry out loud so that the universe could hear me. I knew I was overthinking too much but how it would feel if your boyfriend would do that after so many years being together and actually faking everything into a smile and some ugly flowers.

I looked up in the sky but what was wrong with, it was the rain drops coming slowly as if time stopped. Waching people running to their houses, trying to get safe and get warmer as possible.

The pain was not going away but my tears felt down drop by drop and it was scary to cry so much, so I run to distract myself.

I guess I run for more than an hour that I ended up entering a wide park , I knew this park though it was far from my house..

It was only me going around it. Don't remember too much but I stood there until night , my phone died. I was hungry as hell  but randomly found this way to some shops and what was good ,it  was that I had money with me so I bought myself a sandwhich.

I asked the worker about the bus which goes to my area and told me the way. I felt happy about that but did not forgot about what happened.

In just 2 hours, got home. As I got in, saw Eric, Lucas, Emma and Alessia.

Emma and Alessia jumped to hug me tight as I swiped my face so trying to not let them discover if I cried or not.

Lucas-Where have you been baby ? I missed you.

Said those trying to hug and kiss me. I did not feel anything even if he kissed me in front of everyone. Eric was standing all along but did not say anything. I looked at him but his face wasn't showing that much of interest because Lucas was standing with Emma and Alessia at the kitchen's table. Them all asked me so many questions and tried my best to be specific even though I lied to them but saw Eric going upstairs to my brother's room. Now I thought about him and realised what he meant to me when he told me "I love you". Looking up at the stairs , I went along with Lucas, Emma and Alessia. 

I really did not feel well mentally so I knew I had to keep it to myself, I know that Emma would be ruined because she cares a lot for me and wants all the best for me as we are much closer. Even though Alessia is also my friend, I care about her to and she would understand that too. I need needs some time , I need to observe and make conclusions.