Once upon a time...

Unexpected Connection?

Listen to Paralyzed by NF

My heart is infected. I fell easily, and this time, it shouldn't be heard. It's strange because I've never criticized anyone for it, so why me?

I feel like I'm underwater but on top of it simultaneously. I'm locked in a box, and I'm the one who locked myself in.

I've fallen so deep that I've lost my sense of self. I started attracting attention in the wrong way, but they never noticed me anymore. I fell blindly and lost them while trying to make them see me.

They passed me several times, and I could only smile like an idiot. I wanted to drag you to me, bend your chest open so I could reach your heart. I wanted to see those shattered pieces that make you who you are.

I would prefer...

I can't define it, but I know I fell. I fell so hard it broke my spirit. I cried because I didn't like the feeling. It made me sick to my guts, but I still desired it.

I wonder how the heart can be so deceiving. It's all wrong; it goes against everything I stand for or believe in.

I thought I could overcome it, so I tried ignoring it and putting my thoughts and creativity elsewhere, but it made me numb. It made me toy with people's feelings. They couldn't replace you, not like I ever had you. Not like I was able to touch you, hug you, tell you it's not just in your head. It takes two to connect, but I left you hanging because I was paranoid and...

I just want you to leave so maybe I can move on.
BREATHE Daniella!
I want you to be a distant thought because there should never be an "us."

I fell from a distance; everyone watched but you. I got up. You looked at me and asked, "Are you okay? Did you fall?" I replied, "I'm fine. It's nothing."

Smiles.
                   D a.n.i.e.l.l.a