Ten Conflicts [I'm a girl series- Book #1]

Moment 10 - I F e e l L o n e l y

My whole bedroom is dark however, the fluorescent stars and moon are shining but... it's still dark. Darkness everywhere.

 How much sky looks horrible with no stars and moon. My life is more horrible with no light but only darkness. What would I do if I get stuck in this darkness forever? What would I do if my fate never allows me to go? What would I do then?

Wide awake in the darkness of night, my pillow is being wet by my tears. Everyone is peacefully slept and here I'm crying. I FEEL LONELY. I imagine myself standing in a tunnel and a black colored smoke arises and....... that beast is only what I see. That beast is what people call depression. No one feels what I feel. No one cares about me. I don't have a shoulder to cry on. My parents can't understand what I think. My friends leave me alone in dark. I only can take out my feelings in dark so that nobody sees me crying.

I laugh in school. I laugh in home. I laugh in sadness. Behind my every smile I'm always crying. I don't know what to do except crying.

Sighing, I turn aside while wiping my tears. Depression leads me to another world - the conflicting world.....

Brain: "Stop crying and try to sleep. Don't you feel you're becoming insomniac gradually."

Heart: "Why sleep when you've a lot of emotions to pour out. Your life is so much miserable and you can't even cry? See, how much you feel relieved after crying."

Brain: "Stop thinking and get back to sleep. Don't dare to cry again. Your life is perfect. You have your parents, siblings who are more the friends. Forget that you even cried. Go to sleep and get up happily next morning."

I wipe my face once more and whisper to myself, "I would not cry again."

    The very next night I find myself crying again in the darkness of night. No matter how much times brain wins in this loneliness, heart wins at last. Perhaps it is because I'm a girl.

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Last moment from MY life, uh...past life actually. So, it ended (yaay :D)and I hope people who read, enjoyed it.