Do you ever get that feeling where you don?t want to talk to anybody? You don?t want to smile and you don?t want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don?t know exactly what?s wrong either. There isn?t a way to explain it to someone who doesn?t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being along never was. At least when you?re alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn?t anyone who won?t take ?I don?t know? for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.
Some people try to understand, but nobody can know what living like this is like.
You never know when you wake up, if all will be the same, or if you?ll be back in your dark place, again to feel the pain.
No one can see the pain what we hide, they?re happy for us to keep it inside, our fear is our own; they don?t want to know. Why should we involve them; why should it show.
Our generation has had no Great war, no Great Depression. Our war is spiritual. Our depression is our lives.
So drop the little razor, and pick up your life, forget all the bad things, the pain and the strife.
I?m not my usual self being quiet and lonely isn?t ?me? crying all night, acting all day this isn?t how it?s supposed to be.
I?m hurting so bad inside I just wish you could see? I?m struggling to be someone that isn?t even close to me.
Beware the person who has nothing to lose.
In the end, music is your only friend.
I know what its like to want to die; how it hurts to smile; how you try to fit in but you can?t; how you hurt yourself on the outside; to try to kill the thing that?s in the inside.
Even the people who never frown eventually breakdown.
How can you understand me when I can?t understand myself?
I hate what I have become to escape what I hated being.
It?s like I realized that way down inside, I?ve always been lonely for something. But I don?t know what for. It?s like everybody in the world want?s something. Only they never really know exactly what it is ? they just keep finding out what it?s not. You know how, when you turn off the TV or you come out of some concert, and everything just feels empty? Like you thought that would be what you wanted, and then it wasn?t?
You look at me and think, ?she?s so happy? but there?s so much behind this little smile that you will never know.
Do you ever have those times you cry and you don?t know why?
People are always telling me to smile, like smiling is going to just take away all the hurt and pain. Well I?ve tried that I?ve tried hiding my sorrows and covering the sadness in smiles and what I?ve learned is that when it hurts this much inside your heart always has a way of showing it no matter how many masks you wear.
Let no one think I gave in.
The pain is there to remind me that I?m still alive.
Death is God?s way of saying you?re fired. Suicide is humans way of saying you can?t fire me, I quit.
I don?t know what I want in life. I don?t know what I want right now. All I know is that I?m hurting so much inside that it?s eating me, and one day, there won?t be any of me left.
Everything that ever caused a tear to trickle down my cheek, I run away and hide from it. But now, everything is unwinding and finding its way back towards me. And I don?t know what to do. I just know that pain I felt so long ago, it?s hurting ten time more.
