When I'm Sober I Feel Pain | Kellic

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Cold. My body is so cold.
When did I begin to feel this?
Why did I begin to feel this way?

I stare at the black space in front of me and I just feel so cold. I have lost everything, everything I loved. Everything I had is gone. I can't get Vic back and I can't contact my high school. I can't do anything.

"Kellin!" Someone yelled to me. I squinted my eyes towards the bright light. I saw a shadow of a person, but could not see there full figure.

My thoughts ran wild by that point. I felt frozen in time, like I completely failed myself. That I failed others. That I failed everyone... Everything... That I failed.

"Kellin?" I blinked my eyes slowly open and in front of me was Matty. "Oh thank god, are you okay?" He asked, concern dripping from his voice. I blinked a bit harsher before my brain connected to his voice more.

"W-what?" My voice came out dry and hoarse.

"You passed out." He said quietly.
I didn't really say anything else, I just stared forward. I thought about Vic and how I fucked up. I thought about Jaime... why would he tell Vic all those awful things I did. I regret them all. Every single one of them.
I heard my phone go off and Matty turned to look at my jacket, raising an eyebrow as if silently asking 'Do you want me to get it?' I nodded slightly and he walked over.

Picking up my phone and bringing it over to me. I looked at him confused but he showed me my phone and a text was across the screen.

From Vic:
I'm sorry..

Sorry that this is so short and shitty. I know I haven't updated in awhile, but I have had school and I've been having intense writers block.
Sorry..
Xoxo, Alexx