-Skip to the Beach-
Your POV
We just got here and guess what who showed up? It's Fucking NOAH! Wooh!! (Note sarcasm) I was lying on the white sand while my glass is on. i heard a whistle i open my eyes and i saw a guy standing beside me i sat up and put my sunglasses on head and raise my eye brow
"Can i help u?" i said he smirk
"oh nothing i just wanna introduce myself to a beautiful lady" he said i almost vomit i look past her i saw the girls,bandmates and noah look at us as of lauren she look furious and jealous but why? i know she move on
"uhm.. sorry but i am not interested" i stood up i was about to walk to the girls but someone hold my wrist
"oh come one, i know u want me, so? don't be shy" i ignore him and walk again but i feel his slap my ass
"Wrong move Dude" i heard my bandmates said at the same time i sigh heavenly this guys is getting in my nerves i turn around angrily and point my finger on his chest
"Look!! 1St i have a Boyfriend who is better than you 2nd don't be cocky to much to yourself because YOU are not Fucking attractive, And Don't i mean DON'T even Fucking Touch me!!" he gulp and nodded he run away i heard
"Woohooo!" from the others i walk to them this time and approach them
"He look so scared,"
"did you saw his face he saw-" before mani can finish i feel pain in the back of my head i wince look at ally
"What was that for?" she look at me stern
"for cursing" i give her innocent smile
"i'm sowwy" i said in baby voice she hug
"it's ok, but this is the first time i saw defending and being angry like that" ally said looking worried i look to my bandmates and mila they give me worried look too and i saw lauren and dj waiting my answer curiously
"Everything change, specially when i something happen in that person " i said walking to the water camila give me a sympathic smile as of the 4/5 of fifth harmony give me a worried yet curious look. i was suprise seeing like that to dj but when she realize i looking at her give me a death glare i sigh swim
aftera minutes swimming in the beach i walk to where our things i look up my heart is broke noah and lauren i should really stop this feelings i have a boyfriend who understand ms i sigh when i approach to where they are i think they didn't notice me because they still doing i dry myself sit down on towel
"y/n!" mila shouted i look at her and she the two love birds and glare at lauren i look back the two and they stop
"hey" i said above whisper
"uhm.. s-sorry we-" i cut lauren
"it's fine . continue whatever your doing and ignore" i said give them a small smile noah smirk at me Whatever and lauren look at me i think i saw to her that she want me to do something but i shrug it off
"what do you want mils?" she pouted i raise my one eyebrow to her
"I want ice cream" she said in baby voice i saw dinah looking at curiously i look to camila
"you didn't tell her did you?" give me a confused look
"what?"
"you didn't tell to dinah that you forgive me and i am your friend again?" she shook is head
"1st no she is a little bit distance since you came back even if we are the same mad at you which is totally wrong and 2nd you are my Bestfriend" she said emphasize the word "Bestfriend"
"ok! ok chill. your bestfriend sorry, and let's go get your ice cream" i said standing up she jump up and down
-Skip tmr-
Your POV
I woke because i am hungry i saw camila? in the kitchen with a mug of hot choco i guess and a book in her hand
"Camila?" she look at me and smile
"Goodmorning! y/n/n" she greeted me happily i walk to her sit opposite with her
"morning, why are you awake this early?"
"i actually don't know how about you?"
"ohh. uhm. i'm hungry" i pouted
"Wait i cook for you" before she stood up i stop her
"no! i can do it, we don't want the house to burn down"
"heyy! i can cook"
"suuureee! maybe later i gonna cook" i said i snatch camila hot choco
"that's miiinee!" she whine
"So??" she pouted i take i sip and hand back to her the mug
"uhm..." i look at her from my phone
"what is it?"
"c-can you t-tell me about what happen when you leave and go to l-london and what happen when why did you cut?" she ask hesitent and stutter i sigh "I-i mean is t-that's ok"
"It's ok mila, but do really wanna know? the first when i got to there?" she nodded
i told her what happen in the past, when i got to the london i have my own room
-flashback-
"I am going to my room just don't disturb me" i said to my bandmates and jazz they just look at me worried looking there faces
i walk to my room and locked it i sat down on the bed and the memory of lauren and noah getting in me only in my mind is
"Why she cheated on me?
am i not enough?
did i do somethig wrong?
i love her i treat her well
how she did that to me
and something go to my head
"she didn't even love you, you just her toy and you just her experiment"
i was sobbing now and i look around i saw a blade in the corner of the table i don't know why is there but i shrug it off i walk to it and grab before i put it on the table is like someone saying i need to cut myself
"You know you can relieve what you feel just put the blade in your wrist" something is whispering in my head
i put on my wrist and i start to cut
for being stupid
to love someone
for trusting her
not enough to love
pathetic
for leaving the girls
for hurting them all
for not trusting them
for not stick to there side
for not let them in
-end flashback-
Mila is sobbing now i was too
"s-so it m-means y-you cut b-because o-of u-us too?" she ask me sobbing hug her very tight i shook my head
"n-no i cut because i disapointed you, i hate that i-i know that i hurt you when i leave specially you and dinah, because i didn't help my parents to live" i said she hug very tight we are crying now
"Y-you use to c-cut?" we heard i voice we snap our head and my eyes wided
"shit she can't know that"
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here guys an update sorry for delay, what do you think what is gonna happen next?
sorry for all the mistake especially the grammar. 😔 and oh when do want me to update again?
