lemon lavender & long nights

anger isn't black and white

why did i think you were being genuine?
i ate up every word and it tasted like shit anyway
fuck you for making me feel special
and fuck you for leaving me in the dust once i got accustomed to always having you around

i hate the fact that i'm beginning to hate you
and i hate that i hate that
i can't just forget you because then i'll think of your self-destructive ways and how i won't be there to stop you
but i never made a difference in the first place, did i?
why even try?
i used to think you let me in but you've got thicker walls then i thought