lemon lavender & long nights

just a game

i'd never wish to undo whatever it was we had
because while you may not have shown me
what i was hoping to find through our friendship,
you taught me
who not to be
and what not to say
and how you should never tear someone's heart in two,
no matter how appealing
because letting someone cling on to you
while you leave them behind
or forget about them for a day
has a much bigger impact on their soul
than you'll ever know

unless
you do know
like i did,
and now as someone's heart
lays beaten and battered
in the palm of my hand
i have to stop myself
from picking it up and twirling it
around between my fingers
out of curiosity
because i know nothing good
can come from playing with someone's heart

it was more than just a game to me
but most certainly not to you

i just wish i'd learned that sooner