I Don't Want To Be Your Secret (Josh McClorey & Pete O'Hanlon/The Strypes)

Chapter 7

Amy's P.O.V

This was it. My first day back. I wasn't entirely sure how I was feeling about it but I knew the longer I stayed off the harder it would be when I went back. I hadn't told Estelle I was going back. I decided I'd surprise her and show up late. I dragged myself out of bed and had a look to see what I should wear. I hadn't told anyone but I had spoke confidentially to a professional who said the best way to over come it was a personality change. So now instead of way to sensitive Amy, the world will see doesn't give a fuck about what you think Amy. Okay, okay maybe not, but I'm not going to pay attention to what people are saying about me and to prove that I think it was about time I wore a short sleeved t-shirt. My mum still didn't know so I took a hoodie too but I'm sure once the teachers saw they'd tell her anyways. That was good though. Saves me a job. I thought about jeans and then decided to go for a change. A plain black shorts playsuit. Not my usual choice but oh well. I rummaged and found my knee high converse boots and applied minimalistic makeup before looking in the mirror. My first though was I look disgusting, which I did. My arms were covering in cuts and scars and I was getting so skinny now I felt like one touch and I'd snap... I shook off the negative thoughts and put on my red coat and set off to school, half an hour late.

I stood at the school gates and looked towards the school. It seemed bigger than I remembered... Or I was getting smaller... I took a deep breath and made my way inside. The corridors were empty and I made my way up towards the English corridor.

"Sorry I'm late sir." I said, walking into the room.

"No worries, glad you're feeling better." He smiled. I nodded before walking over to my table and getting a big hug off Estelle.

"You're back! Why didn't you text?" She cheered.

"Thought I'd surprise you." I smiled.

"Well you certainly have." Estelle giggled.

"Have you got anything under that long coat!?" Evan smirked. I turned around to see Pete shoving his elbow into Evan's side. He flashed me a quick smile before returning to his work.

"He has a point though Mimi... It's not like you to not wear jeans..." Estelle said.

"Amy can you hurry up and take your coat off and sit down so we can continue please?" Mr Simpson asked.

"Erm, I'm going to leave my coat on I think..." I said, sitting down. I reached my hand out for my book and no everyone on the table saw how little fat I had there and anywhere else.

"Wow Amy, you're really skinny!" Charlotte gasped.

"Am I? I hadn't really noticed..." I mumbled. As I sat there my idea of taking my coat of and just revealing my scars was becoming more and more less likely.

It was really hot but finally I got to leave for my Music lesson. I arrived to see Miss Ayling stressing as she paced back and forth across the room.

"Are you okay miss?" I asked.

"Oh welcome back Amy. Just take a seat for now please." She smiled as everyone came into the room. "Okay so the exam board have got back to me and have said that you're not allowed to pick your groups for the assignment... I've paired you up and however many weeks we've wasted you'll get added onto the end." She smiled. Everyone stood up and had a look at the board. Charlotte and Rebecca were together. Hayley was with a girl called Clara. And I was stuck with Josh... Brilliant...

We had all got our own practice room. The doors were solid and sound proof. No one could see in and the door had and lock for when we were recording. As soon as we got in, Josh locked the door and turned to face me.