21 December 2015
Alright so I am Kim Taehyung, the predator of the story.
I don't get it. Why does he still messages me when I clearly don't reply back? I understand he is updating me with his daily life and I'm glad he is recovering. However, to be very honest, I don't need to know any of that.
Yes I'm a jerk. I'm a jerk for moving on very easily. That now I'm with another, happily texting and accompanying her till late night. Deep down, I am truly sorry for all the wrongs I've done to Jungkook. I am. It's time for him to move on from me because I have, a long time ago.
If I hit him back a reply, I'd plant hope in him which is something I wouldn't want. It'll hurt him even more if he expects more than that. If I don't hit him a reply at all, it seems as though I'm a douchebag but I rather be labelled that than hurt him further. If I did reply, in one way or another, it'll lead to an argument.
I'm sick and tired of that. First, he sounds happy and then he'll burst into an outrage if I did say something insensitive. Yes he is tired of it too whenever that happens so that's why I hope all this melodrama would end before the new year comes. I believe he can do it.
Jeon is too amazing for someone like me to have. He deserves nothing but the very best. You might think this is me sprouting bullshit because here I am all happy with another but I couldn't take care of the one person who loves me wholeheartedly.
Instead, I end things off.
I guess it isn't meant to be. I've long moved on. My focus is on someone else now. I hope Jungkook would leave me alone. The year 2016 is a year whereby I want him erased from my life for good. His existence meant nothing anymore so I hope the texting would stop before the new year is here. I'll most probably send him one last text, in hopes for him to stop and move on.
Hate me all you want. This is life. People come and go. As much as it hurts, he has no choice but to forget me. I'm sure one fine day he would find a lovely girl for himself who will love him as much as he loves her. I appreciate the fact that he has forgiven me. That's a trait I can never forget about him.
That he is forgiving. His heart is golden.
Jeon Jungkook, I wish him the best. May he move on from a guy who does nothing but hurt him. May he blossom to be the strong person I know he is. May he look forward and never ever think of me anymore.
Even so, I hope he doesn't falter cause as strong willed as he is, he tends to breakdown and once again, he goes back to square one.
I hope 2016 is a year where he love himself more and focus on nothing else except for family, his best friends and of course, him as an individual.
Move on, Jeon.
Don't think of me.
Leave me alone.
Please do not text me anymore.
