Diabolik Lovers One-shots

☆Shu x Subaru Part 1

There will probably be triggering material in this one. Idk yet, but just be careful I guess.

Subaru's POV

Shu has been my best friend for a long time, since we were both very young. He always used to give me piggy-back rides and share his iPod with me. We always had so much fun talking about music together. On my birthday every year, Shu would take me to the rose gardens so we could plant another rose bush. The roses we planted were almost always white. That was my favorite kind of flower.

In the last few years, Shu and I have grown apart. He is always sleeping or listening to music, and I can never gain his attention for more than a few minutes. This is why I have so much anger inside me and why I'm always punching things. Going to the rose garden helps, but I'm still so frustrated.

Shu has changed so much since we were little, and I guess I've changed a lot, too.

I miss him. I miss Shu more than anyone could ever imagine. It saddens me that we are no longer friends. I hate him sometimes for allowing us to grow apart.

Often I wonder if Shu ever really loved me at all. Of course I love him. I love him a lot actually. But my hatred buries that love sometimes and I just can't help breaking down.

My lungs feel like they've been crushed by an elephant. My chest hurts, and I've been drinking less blood lately. I know that I'll die if I stop drinking it altogether, but sometimes I find it hard to care.

If I never existed at all, would Shu even notice? Would he care if I were to up and leave? Would he cry if I died today?

To tell the truth, I believe the answer to all my questions is no.

I'm sorry, Shu. For everything.

I'M SORRY, OKAY. I HAD TO DO IT. I HAD A REALLY GREAT IDEA FOR A SHUBARU SHIP AND I HAD TO USE IT. I AM PROBABLY GOING TO MAKE A PART TWO FOR THIS LATER, BUT IDK YET.

THIS MURDERED MY HEART WITH THE FEELS-MOBILE. I'M GOING TO GO CRY INTO MY PILLOW FOR A WHILE, OKAY BYE