Block B (ManxMan|MC|Mpreg) - BLOCK SERIES - BOOK 2

Chapter #18| Mistake

S I N

I love you

My eyes widen staring at Fernando in disbelief, hearing my own heart pound which I swear Fernando can also hear in the quiet room. He loves me, he says he loves me but do I love him? Tears roll down his cheek as Fernando bite his bottom lip, I wanted to say something but I couldn't utter a word nor sound instead I walked away.

I showered quickly then walked out of the club house and drove to Mercury to get paper work done, why the hell did I do that? Why did I run away? He says he loves me so what's the problem then? I growled slamming my fist onto my wooden desk, for goodness sake, what the hell am I doing?

I called Kathy to check on Fernando, I asked her to not hang up and knock on the door but all I could is his cries. My heart pained hearing him cry, I could only blame myself for doing that to him. He said he loves me but I didn't say it back but instead I ran away like I always do. I had partners in the past never have I felt something more with those relationships, I kept my relationships private, actually don't even think I can consider them relationships. Raised in a biker family, violence is the only answer and no room for love as my uncle says.

Living in an MC changes you, turns you cold and do stupid sh*t that'll lead you to jail. I never understood love, thought it was a useless emotion. Never understood why my mother stayed with my father, the f*cker never loved her so why did she stay? She says it's love but I think she's just blind and not seeing the truth just like Leon. But I feel different when I am around Fernando, Jones says I've changed when Fernando came into myself. How can a monster like me love someone so loving and caring like Fernando?

F E R N A N D O

He left me.

He didn't love me and his actions proves it, I cried as I heard his bike roar to life and drove away in the distance. I had a feeling I shouldn't of confessed, I feel so stupid that I fell in love with him. I touch my small baby bump, I cried worrying about our future, he doesn't love me and with that he's broken my heart. I heard Kathy knocking on the door calling my name but I just cried, I didn't bother answering since I couldn't stop the tears.

Have I been wrong wondering Calvin could love me back? I know he isn't perfect, neither of us are but I can see him changing so I thought there's hope but I guess I am wrong. I felt suffocated staying in his room, I cried for hours until Mikey kick the door open. He looked furious wanting to kill someone, Mike hugged me tight allowing me to cry on his shoulder.

"He's a bastard" Mikey hissed. I nodded in response, he is.

"I-I can't stay here, I-I need to leave" I cried. Kathy walked into the room, she tried to explain Calvin's actions but I didn't want to hear it. I don't to hear any excuses, he just left me alone not bothering giving me an answer I deserve expect he ran like a coward!

"Let's get out of here, it's about time we leave" Mikey replies. Kathy try to protest but I told her not to say anything, I felt bad rudely snapping at her and I didn't mean to but right now I just want to get out of here pronto. I packed my bag, I walked out of the room looking back remembering the nights we shared. He isn't a monster, I told him countless of times he isn't a monster, he never was one but he's too stubborn to listen. I placed the folded paper on his bed, a letter I written for him I've written not to long ago.

It's pathetic loving him even thought we've known each other for such a short time, I got ahead of myself and wanted to be selfish and have him for myself. I cherish those nights we shared together, I sighed and close the door shut. I asked Mikey about leaving without telling the Russian twins, he gave me a sad smile then turned into anger and says 'they don't need me anymore'. The drive to Xander's home didn't take long, considering our apartment is sold we have no place to go. I know they'll demand answers but at this time I just want to sleep and forget everything, I guess it's for the best.

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"Here's your coffee" says Xander

"Thanks" I replied. I remained silent and taking a few slips of my coffee, it tasted delicious and again thanked Xander. Staring at my phone seeing several messages and missed calls from Calvin I decided to ignore him. I looked at the option to block his number, my shaky hands held the phone in place so I cancelled the option.

"You ready to tell me what happened?" he asked

"I confessed to him" I said

"And what did he say?" Xander replied. I bite my bottom to prevent myself from crying, I've cried enough.

"Nothing, he said nothing" I whispered

"Did you give him a chance to explain?" he asked

"I-I did but he left, he drove away leaving me behind" I said. Xander remained silent then I cried, he hugged me tight allowing me to cry my heart out. The others knew it was Sin who broke my heart, I didn't need to explain the situation but Xander says it's none of their business to get involved. After crying for another hour I wanted to walk on the beach alone, I needed to clear my head and calm down. I needed to stop stressing otherwise it'll hurt my baby girl, will Calvin be in her life? I need to stop thinking about that. I sat there for hours till sunset, I sadly smiled seeing couples sitting in the beach together watching to sunset. Seeing families enjoying themselves, I wanted to that, I wanted that to be us.

I walked back to Xander's house, walking through dark streets hearing cars drive in the distance. I quicken the pace sensing someone following me, I looked back seeing a shadow quickly moved out of sight. I felt my heart pump rapidly, I am close to his house I just need to speed walk back, my hand touch my small stomach, I can see the lights coming from his house. Until I screamed as I hand covered my mouth, my eyes widen in fear, I struggle out of the attackers grasp but he held me tight moving me towards somewhere dark.

"Found you" he whispers. I screamed tears roll down my cheek, I felt the sharp tip of a knight touch my pregnant stomach. My attackers voice sounded familiar, immediately I think back who that voice belonged to.

It's Nathan.