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oh shit tacky mushrooms.....

5:56 am and I'm still not asleep, my alarm will go off any minute, so instead of just laying down I started my routine

I look into the mirror of my bathroom sink and saw that I have bags under eyes, but nothing make up can't fix

as I continue with my routine images of yesterdays event flashes through my mind. The kiss, MY first kiss, I can not believe that I gave my first kiss to Xander! my fake boyfriend,former bully,trouble maker,rule breaker, heart breaker XAVIER ALEXANDER!!! 

oh and that isn't the worst part, I felt something during the kiss, like... like... GAAAH  words can't even described how I felt!!!!

yup, it's official, I'm insane

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I'm in Chemistry right now, I've been avoiding Xander since this morning, he tried calling for my attention once during gym but I just ignored him

You can't expect me to face him after yesterday, he would probably just say to forget about it and so I'm trying

back to being in Chemistry, cause the universe hates me so much it decided to put Xander and I in the same class.... love you too universe.... not

half way through class, Xander and I hasn't said a word to each other...that's good

I have been keeping my attention on the teacher and his boring lesson, I glanced at Xander and saw him writing something down on a piece of paper

after he was done he passed the note to me, I opened the paper and read it

"what's up with you? why have you been avoiding me? does it have something to do with last night? after school meet me at the school parking lot, if you're not there then I'll go to your house tonight, we have to talk" I took a glance at Xander ans saw him looking at me, he isn't actually gonna go to my house right??? eh who cares

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10:45 HA!!! he didn't come, knew it!

I was getting ready for bed when I heard a knock on my balcony door. what.the.actual.fuck?

I got and opened it to reveal Xander "what are you doing here?!?!" I whisper-yell knowing my parents are now asleep

"I told you I would come tonight, didn't I?" he says as he enters my room

"yeah, well you could have at least done it like a normal person would!" "why didn't you come?" oh...that "I-I uh, have to walk my dog" brilliant 

"you don't have a dog" right, I let out a nervous laugh

"did I say my dog? I meant my neighbor's dog" like he'll fall for that "cut the crap Chezka" it was obvious in his tone that he was starting to get impatient

"okay, we kissed, agreed on not doing it again, then you kissed me again, now you wanna talk about it, can we just forget about it???" I rambled out 

his eyes softened as he looks at mine "what if I don't want to just forget about? what if I want to remember it for the rest of my life? what if I don't want this fake relationship anymore? cause maybe I want it to be real" his words left me speechless 

"Chezka please give me a chance, let me prove to you that I'm not the old Xander that used to hurt you, cause right now, it's not even on the list of the things I want to do to you, I want to be able to call you mine, hold you in my arms, kiss you whenever I want, Chezka, will you go out with me???" He asked with pleading eyes

oh shit tacky mushrooms.....

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short? I know, late? I know, hate me? I do too

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