Dating Eunhyuk

seventeen

I decided that I need to be honest to Joon hye,
I want to be fair to her and with Donghae as well.
I have asked Donghae to give me time to talk to her,
To let her know that
I am officially off the market.
The reason I haven't used the term
In a relationship because
Donghae hasn't exactly told me that we're going out or anything.
Not that I'm waiting for it to be official
I mean you can't do that and go back to being just friends.

So i left him in the room
Pouting as I went out
But give him a swift kiss to console him.
I saw Joon hye, even I was gone for more than thirty minutes she seems okay.
"Do you want to talk outside?
I know a great place."
She nodded although I notice how her eyes became sad.

While walking towards the park,
She sat and was waiting for me to speak.
When I didn't speak
She sighed.
" Are you gonna reject me again?"
"I'm not rejecting you...Its just that I'm...I'm no longer available."
It seems vague.

"Ahhh...."
She seems to ponder on this for a bit,
"So i guess Donghae ssi finally confessed huh? Took him long enough."

Why does everybody knows this
And I was oblivious about it for how many years?!
She could see my puzzled look.
" The way he looks at you...just every time he could see you, his face lit up like your his everything.. so I know how he feels..."

And here I thought he was just being a kid whenever he insists on sleeping at my bed.
Wearing my clothes, getting mad when I talk to the other members without him.
He was...simply being in loved.

"I Knew from the time he went to your room to get your clothes I could tell how upset he was...how scared he was because he thought you could like me..
When all this time...
You loved him."

I didn't speak for quite sometime.
It was a weird experience, dumping a girl, over a guy.