Finding A Way Out

Chapter 15

 Yes Yes I Know!! SHORT!! But I Had To Get Something Out Because Updating Is Now Going To Become Slightly Difficult! I'm Going To Start Living With My Aunt Because My School And My Mothers Work Hours Just Don't Go Together And My Aunt Is Really Strict On ME, About Being On The Laptop! BUT I Will Try And When I Come Home On Weekends I'll Try My Best To Write As Much As I Can!

Yesterday I Wrote Like One Sentence On This Chapter And Today I Wrote The Rest Like Not Even Two Hours Ago! I'll Tell Ya, I'm Pretty Damn Proud!

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¤MICHELLE¤

I was sure he didn't mean me, Michelle Beggens.

No way in hell was it me.

For one, who would make me a luna? Two, well there is no two because number one was reason enough.

I was sure I wasn't the only one in shock because it seemed as if the whole room had gone extremely quiet.

Cricket. Cricket.

Pin dropped.

It was like time slowed. Allowing everybody to let what was said sink in and just like that.

Chaos.

Chaos erupted. People were whispering, talking, and most of all shouting. To whom? Alpha Jared.

"She's not fit to be a Luna!"

"I won't stand for this!"

"She knows nothing of our kind!"

She's just a little pup!"

"She's a disgrace!"

Okay now that last one really hit me and I found myself tearing up. Never have I ever let what anybody had to say about me hit me so deeply. My friends were different, they meant something to me. I didn't know most the people in this room and the ones I did know, I hated. So why when someone says I'm a little pup, not fit to be a Luna, or a disgrace, why does that hurt me? Believe it or not it was actually an insult when someone called you a pup. Pup in werewolf term was known as kid; clueless, weak, and stupid. But it was only an insult when you've past the age of being a pup, which was about fifteen. I wasn't fourteen, neither was I fifteen. I'm seventeen, almost eighteen. So what, may you ask, made them call me a pup? Simple because I barely had my first shift a year ago and like they said I was a 'disgrace'.

Being Luna may be difficult, just as being a Alpha is, but I could handle it. Maybe a week ago, I wouldn't have thought so highly of myself. But now, why not? I've literally seen myself fight. I could protect my pack!

Woah woah! MY pack?

I didn't want to be Luna. I didn't want my life to be all about the pack. The people that tormented me and ignored me. Not to mention the ones who called and still call me a 'disgrace'.

And I definitely did NOT want to be the mate of James.

I mean I liked James. He showed me how sweet and gentle he can be. He was my first kiss. And I hate to admit it but I liked it. I liked the way his smooth firm lips very softly touched mine. The way he put his emotions into every kiss we've had. Passion. The kind of passion that heats up your insides, making your heart pump a little harder and faster. The kind of passion that takes your breath away and makes you feel like you're suffocating when you're not. The kind of passion that you need and never want to let go.

I was so confused. I didn't want to be Luna but I did. I didn't want to be James' mate but did I really want to let him go? Could I?

So much was going through my mind. My heart and mind having an internal battle while I watched helplessly on the side, not knowing which side to root for. Do I pick my heart or do I pick my mind?

I didn't know, but what I did know was that I definitely couldn't decide here in World War III.

I got up and ran out of the room before anyone could stop me. The tears I had so perfectly held in, had finally spilled, slightly blurring my vision. But it didn't do anything to my hearing. Trailing behind me was "She's nothing but a coward!", "You call that a Luna!", "She runs! We need a strong Luna!", "She could never be Luna!"

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