Random assortment of semi-suicidal poetry

I feel

You're callous and cruel
And you think me a fool
I'm like gum stuck to your heel
But hear me now
For I feel

I'm not your rag
A puppet for play
I let you abuse me
Yet still I stay
I'm weak? Nay
it's because
I feel

I feel so much
I feel your touch
Even though you never have
I feel for you such
That I have never felt before
Stay please
Feed my fantasies
Crush my soul
For decades and more
For I pray for that one moment
When you'll make me soar

Body Mind and soul
Its yours for the taking
It baffles me
That you can't tell I'm aching

You kill me everyday
You kill me with every breath
With every word my soul you steal
Take this away, I don't want to feel

Ever since you weaselled in
To my life and my mind
I feel angry and desperate
I feel so very wild

What slays me more
Is your cold stare
Either you don't know
Or you just don't care

When I imagined myself falling
As a child, a naive girl
Never did I think
You'd be the reason behind me wanted to be in
As well as away from this world

Stop killing my spirit
For I know not who I am
A sure spritely youth
'S now merely one of your spellbound lambs

Did you plan this I wonder
Do you know what you are
Do you know what you do
To my fragile childish heart?

Snivelling and weak
Is what you've made me
I was once a warrior
I was once at peace

You won't read this
And I'll never tell
How I'm hopelessly and utterly
Under your spell

O Darkness take it far from me
Take away my ability
My desire to feel

For that child's dream
I once had
Of  hands held and stars agleam
Is naught but a wonderment
Its just that, a dream

My thoughts
And my being
All's in disarray
I owe you much
And yet nothing at all

Make me your disciple
Let me serve you
So I won't be stifled
And I can finally be with you

Make me your friend
Let me help you
Your misery I will end
I swear my fealty to you

Make me your lover
Let me prove my devotion
I promise to cherish you
And bring you oceans

Oceans filled with naught
But your wildest dreams and more
Oceans to prove how much I want
To be in your life, for richer or for poorer

To my heavily devoted readers, supporters and fans who are always oh so patient with me and my lazy ways. Thankyou. For still sticking by me. Thankyou. Because your comments lift my spirits when I'm down. And thankyou for thinking me worthy of all your support. Here's something after a long time. Tbh I don't even know what this is but Ive been meaning to write SOMETHING for quite some time now. Anyway. I hope you like it, do continue to show your support. Love you all ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️