Random assortment of semi-suicidal poetry

I miss you, my best friend

I miss you when I laugh

in the now unfamiliar air

I miss you when I eat my food

or even brush my hair

I miss your gentle voice

and the way you'd touch my face

I miss the way you smelt

I miss your safe embrace

even though I smile

I miss you more everyday

I miss your precious grin

and how you'd make me feel okay

theres not a moment I dont feel

the absence of your being

I hope you know I miss you

and I can never stop grieving

I miss you when I go outside

and when I stay in too

I miss your deep blue eyes

and the way you'd eat my food

I wish you'd come to me again

just come to me and stay

for its hard to go along with life

without you being there

you never spoke a word to me

yet you meant and knew so much

its hard to say just how much I miss you

and your comforting touch

your blood is fresh upon my hands

I wish I couldve helped you

in the last moments of your life

I hope you sensed me too

I was there, I was there

as you breathed your last

I hope you felt me next to you

as your beautiful soul flew past

Please be happy and be safe

it wont be long now

when Ill join you in that curious place

where noone ever frowns

still nothing can change

just how much I miss thee

I miss you when I close my eyes

I miss you whenever I breathe

this was really hard for me to write, because Ive been struggling with the reality of this.
I know none of you will understand how much my cat meant to me, some may even laugh. But please understand that I cant take any jabs or jokes.
Thankyou.