Just kids in love // chandler riggs (COMPLETED)

Chapter 24

Violet

It's been 3 days since the whole Chandler thing and let me tell you. They have not been easy

Sitting on my couch watching Stuck In Love and eating Cookies and Cream ice cream for 3 days wasn't going to beneficiate anyone. Including me. I've never cried so much because of a boy. In fact, I've never cried because of a boy. Boys were always off limits for me. I was a strong independent women until Chandler Riggs came into my life and showed me what an amazing human being he is and how fun life can be when you're with the person you love. Even if you don't know it yet

I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't breath. Knowing all the things I'll miss because I said no to him. I can't live knowing I missed the perfect boy because of a little worry I had at the back of my head.

Chandler Riggs is the boy for me. I just know it. I care so much about him you can't imagine, I need to be with him. What I learned from the 3 days I was in constant pain was that I can't live without him. I need to get him back

I just need to find an occasion, but not just an occasion, I need to find the perfect occasion to tell him. He'll be so thrilled to finally hear those 3 words come out of my mouth. I want to be with him.

I want Chandler Riggs to be mine, and I want to be his

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I entered the doors of Buckner and I greeted all the boys I had grown a love for from all the times I've come here at the same exact time

"Hi Grant"

"Hi Spencer"

"Hey Carl, nice to see you" (see what I did there)

I walked up the stairs and I saw Chandlers group of friends standing in front of a bulletin board that had a white background and in big safety-orange color letters "WINTER FORMAL TICKETS OUT NOW"

The winter formal is this dance that Buckner and St. Mary's have together each december, I've never gone to one because I honestly never give 2 damns about winter formal, but this year I'll have a date, so it's an option to go

They all turned to look at me and they greeted me

"Hi boys" I told them as I walked past them to get to the lab. I can't believe this is really happening. Chandler and I will finally be together

I was in such a great mood,nothing could ruin my day right now, My life was perfect right now

I opened the door and I saw him sitting on a desk with earphones on, maybe that's why he hasn't said Hi to me yet

I walked over to where he was and I snachted his helmet-hair-weave off his head and I realized Chandler was bald

I'm Kidding

I snatched his earbuds off his ears and I turned in front of him and I have him a big smile

"Hiii" I told him and sat down on the table in front of him

He kept a cold stare on me and he didn't say a word. I looked at his eyes and I saw them puffy and a bit sore, I also noticed the bags under his eyes looked way heavier than they did a week before.

"Is everything okay?" I asked him laughing a little. He didn't respond and he just sat there silent looking at me. Why is he so mad

"I have chocolate pudding in my backpack, I bought 2" I told him grabbing my backpack. That also didn't make him talk

"Ok grouchy head. I do have something to tell you that will sure make you talk. You just wait" I told him smiling. Still, no expression no words, just the dead cold stare. His eyes reflected chagrin in a way I had never seen his eyes before, he looked sadder than that one time I told him the kiss we shared didn't mean anything

"Ok Chandler, listen, I felt like such an idiot after what happened on Friday, I definitely didn't think through all that I said, and I'm here to tell you that I'm sorry. I hadn't realized what I had in front of me until I almost lost it. I can't live without you Chandler. I just can't. That's what I learned this past 3 days of crying and watching chick flicks, but that's not the point. The point is that this past 3 days, I learned that" I said, and I took a huge breath before I said the last 3 words

"I love you" I finally told him , I felt a huge weight being lifted off my chest, and I felt the relief hit me as I said those 3 words

Chandler's face only got sadder and he crossed his arms. This isn't the answer I was looking for. Chandler kept staring at me until some good 2 minutes of pure silence passed, he stood up and he was in front of me. Was this the part he kisses me and promises we'll be together forever?

"I know, I know, it's a bit late, but I mean, I did it, I admitted my feelings for you" I told him smiling

His expression stayed the same

"Violet, I don't love you.........anymore" He said with a completely straight face. And suddenly, I couldn't breath

My heart stopped

My breathing was uneven

I could feel my heart shattering in a thousand piceces

I felt like I was drowning and there was an anchor pulling me deeper

I felt like all the happiness there once existed in my life was sucked out of me

I felt like something that once was my everything had just fallen apart

I felt like all my hopes of happiness were crushed

In just 5 minutes I was in the same spot I had been the last 3 days, but multiplied by 10, this pain was unbearable.

His exact words repeated themselves over and over in my head not understanding how you can just walk away from the person you loved so suddenly, 'did he really even love me?' repeated over and over and over again in my brain until my head started hurting.

And then It hit me that he didn't really love me at all, Chandler isn't weak, he wouldn't have let me go that easily, then why did he?

I closed my eyes for a second and I felt all the tears I had ever been holding back in my life pour and pour down my cheeks. I found myself sobbing uncontrollably with every breath I took. And Chandler, he just stood there in front of me, looking at me break.

When I was younger my sisters told me there would be a boy that would break my heart and it would hurt me more than anything, They told me your first heartbreak was the one you would never forget, This was it.

He walked away from me and he was about to walk out the door, leaving me alone in this room full of memories we shared, but then I did something very stupid I knew I was going to regret later 

"Can you hold me?" I turned around with a tear stained face to look at him, he slowly turned around and he slowly walked over to where I was. Then he opened his arms and I held on to him so tightly I was afraid he couldn't breath. But then he hugged me back and he patted my back as I cried into his chest

"You'll be fine" was all he told me. I was pouring down my emotions because of his frail heart and all he tells me is that I'll be fine

"It hurts too much" I told him sobbing, he continued to pat my back, he put his chin on top of my head and he held on to me

"I know" He told me

That's when I realized I had been putting Chandler in this pain the whole time. Only mine was worse. Nothing's worse than I don't love you anymore

"Why does it hurt so much?" I asked him still crying, by this time I couldn't feel my face with so much crying

We stayed there for some 5 minutes, with pure silence

"Because it was real" was all he said.

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A/N I'm such a terrible person omg

THIS CHAPTER HAS BEEN PLANNED SINCE I FIRST BEGAN WRITING THIS FIC SO DON'T SAY I DID THIS JUST BC I WAS BORED ALL RIGHT

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