DERANGED (R. Grimes)°

chapter 11 "on golden pond"

It was now dark out, and we all sat around the fire enjoying the meal made for us, I told everyone about my time in the station amd rick was in the middle of explaining how he got out and how we met up, he hugged Lori and Carl rested on his lap, I sat close to shane who listened intently

"disorientated" rick said as lori stroked carls hair "that comes closest...disorientated"

Tunder rumbled threw the silent group as we each listened "fear, confusion, all those things but... Disoriented comes closest"

"words can be meager things" dale said getting the attention of the group, I looked over at the gray haired man "somtimes they fall short"

"I felt like I've been ripped out of my life.. put somewhere Else" ricks somber voice continued

"like a dream" I spoke quietly, ricks eyes met mine, before he looked down at Carl and nodded

"felt like a coma dream.. Something I might not wake up from, ever"

"mom said you died" carls quiet voice said, I tensed as lori shushed him, I heard rick say Somthing quietly to Carl but didn't quiet catch what it was, but I did however catch on to the glances Shane and Lori shared

"when things started to get really bad.. They told me at that hospital that.. They were gonna medevac you and the other patients to athlanta, and it never Happend" Lori explained, I stared at Shanes guilt ridden face the whole time she spoke

"well thank God it didn't, yall seen that Place" I breathed out, looking down to my feet

"thank God" rick added quietly "and by the look of that hospital it got over run..."

"yeah, looks don't deceive, I Barley got them out, you know?" Shane said before taking a deep breath, Shane was also Carl godfarther, so it was not a surprise he went for Lori and Carl as we where more then just family friends, also Shane had no siblings, or farther, his mother was stuck in an old folks home, she was sick to, so I douthed he went after her

"I can't tell you how gratful I am to you Shane" rick said "cant begin to express it"

"you did your part right" I said rembering what we spoke about earlier, but from the way he looked at rick... Not getting me at the station wasn't close to what was bothering him

"there go those words falling close again" dale said, I felt tension in the air, but wasn't sure if others could "paltry things"

Everyone stayed silent after that, I looked back at Shane again and for the first time since sitting down his eyes met mine, I gave him a look, telling him that I was looking for answers, but he simply looked back down and clenched his jaw

I was startled by the sound of moment behind us, I looked over my shoulder and noticed the basterd ed place another log into his fire causing the amber light to become higher

"hey ed" Shane called over, I continues to look at the daft man with a glare "you want to rethink that log?" he said, I curled up my top lip, he carol and shopia sat at a diffrent fire pit, ed wouldn't allow them to sit with us, which was redicouleus

"it's cold man" ed simply said, closing his eyes

"cold don't change the rules does it? Keep our fires low, just embers, so we can't be seen from a distance right?" Shane added, I glanced as rick quickly who was squinting at ed

"I said its colds, you should mind your own business for Once"

That was it, no one, I mean no one talks to Walsh like that

I stood up abruptly, Shane following me as I rounded the family's small camp

"this is our business, you listen here ed would you rather be cold? Or having the dead eating out of that beer filled gut of yours" I spat, everyone stayed silent, a very tense atmosphere arising
"or worse, having other people come up and taking all the shit you've spent weeks gathering"