DERANGED (R. Grimes)°

Chapter 16 "just stay close"

We ran, we ran and ran and ran, ran until we couldnt anymore, but we didn't stop, by the time we where close to the camp we all couldn't go faster then a jog

I could tell we where all ready to just walk the rest of the way, but a rush of complete adreline ran threw me as screams began to echo from the camp, I didn't even give anyone a glance as I raced forward, moving my legs as fast as humanly possible, sprinting so fast I got there in seconds, with a Gun in hand I stopped in shock at the sight if walkers making there way threw the camp, grabbing onto people as the screams continued

"RICK!!" I roared out so loud my voice instantly hurt, but noticing Lori holding onto Carl, and seeing walkers come closer I began shooting, followed by more behind me so I knew they made it here

"Lori cover his eyes!" I yelled, standing beside Shane as I shot down any dead, or at anyone I noticed had been bitten, I watched as Margaret got taken down, but the second she was bitten I but a bullet in her brain

I couldnt help but stop for moment, thinking about what I just did, I waited for the rush of guilt, of saddness, but once relizing It wasn't coming I raised up my gun again
As the screams and groans and flesh ripping sounds rang threw my ears, they all began to mash together,
Jumbling inside my head, causing my eyes to become fuzzy at the sides, soon ringing was added into the sound as I shot blindly at this stage, feeling a lack of oxygen I relized I was holding my breath, and once letting it go the sound seemed so intense

Looking around at all the dead bodies, my head and heart began to weigh a ton, I noticed rick holding his family, and Shane trying to talk to me, but I couldn't hear a word he was saying, I knew the walkers where gone, and no one was screaming but it still rang threw my ears so realistically that I had no idea if my eyes where wrong or if it was my ears

Just as I felt as tho I was about to pass out, a horribly grief ridden cry snapped me out of It, I turned, and my heart stopped once noticing Andrea shake her sisters dead body

I didn't know how to describe the emotions I was feeling, or what I was even feeling, but I knew I didn't like It

"iris!" Shane shook my shoulder, but as much as I wanted to I couldn't being myself to move, I couldn't wash of the horrified expression on my face, i was stuck like stone

Suddenly a slap came to my face, and gasps filled the air as I fell to the ground from the hard force, but a painful shock rang threw me, brining me back to my sences

"Shane!" I heard rick angrily hiss, I looked up to see Shanes guilt ridden eyes as he bent down and helped me up

"I'm sorry iris I didn't know what else to-

"a slap in the face is the least of my problems right know Shane" I breathed out, I looked around again as did everyone else, I couldnt help but notice glenns panic breathing, seeming like he was ready to brake down into tears, Lori and Carl where crying, so was dale, Jim seemed almost fightend, not shaken up, but actually scared

I couldnt help but reconize this feeling, it was the same one I had after cleaning out the station.. Only so much more intense...

"we need to clear this all up" I called, loud enough for everyone to hear, my voice shook as I spoke

"there's no point in procrastinating"

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I sat down, exhausted from the amount of bodies I've had to drag around, I cringed as I tore the gloves of my sweaty cut up hands, tossing the meterial away

"hey" I suddenly heard from beside me, my head shot up and I notice Carl looking down at me

"hey kid" I said quietly, putting my hand on his back from where I sat, rubbing it gently "you doing okay?"