"I'd say put a pickaxe in his head, and the dead girls and be done with it" daryl grumbled, really starting to get on my nerves
"that what you'd want, if it was you?" Shane asked him, but daryl just scoffed
"yeah, and I'd thank ya while ya did it"
"what if it was merle" I then asked pointedly, daryls head snapped at me, looking like he was ready to rip my head of
"I hate to say it, I never taught I would but mabye daryls right" dale suddenly spoke
"Jims not a rabbid dog dale, he's a sick sick man" dale began to try fight his case but rick spoke over him again
He mentioned the CDC, which sparked a conversation between him and Shane, Shane then suggested fort benning
"look Shane even if we wanted to go, we don't have the supplies" I answered, looking between the both of them, once seeing a look of anger in Shanes eyes I decided not to take sides
"but rick I douth there still working there, it could be a place to rest for a While" I added, Shane and rick looked to each other, a tension rising and I instantly wish I kept my mouth shut
"do what you want, someone needs to be able sort this problem out!" dixon suddenly yelled braking the stare of, he rose his pickaxe up to Jim but before he could do anything rick had a gun pointed to his head to stop him, Shane stepped between Jim and dixon
"we don't kill the living" rick spat, I then walked up, ripping the weapon out of dixons hand
"you know that's funny.. Coming from a guy with a Gun to my head" daryl retorted to rick
"now we may not agree on alot of things but this ain't One" Shane answered, I turned and nodded to him, one in which he returned, daryl just had another huff, and walked of
Rick then braught Jim away from everyone, I shook my head, tired and hungry I was quickly becoming pissed of, I strutted away over to where the vehicles where, leaning against glenns car
"so.. Where do you really think we should go?" Shane asked, I relized he had followed me over, and I closed my eyes to calm down, Shane leaned beside me on the car, and i rested my head against his shoulder
"I dunno... Anywhere but Here" I answered, Shane didn't say anything after that, and when I opened my eyes again he wasn't facing me, but neither of us moved from where we stood, the last thing I wanted right know was a fight, and as rick walked over it was what I was dreding
"Jackies minding him, although I douth daryl will try that again" rick stated as he stood across from us, I lifted my head of Shanes shoulder, and it was heavier then it was before, the dry blood only adding onto the weight
"look rick.." Shane began, but rick shook his head
"we'll talk about it when things calm down slightly" rick said, I nodded in agreement
"yeah, I have a aheadace anyways" I sighed, resting my head on the car, the sun beating down on my face
"are you alright?" Shane and rick asked simultaneously, I opened one eye and looked at there humoured faces, and a smirk rose to my lips
"I'm fine guys" I answered, before closing my eyes again
"are you alright" I heard ricks voice, I scrunched my eyebrows in confussion
"yeah.. You" I heard Shane answer, and I allowed my face to relax again, rick didn't answer, but I assumed he just nodded or Somthing
It was silent for a while, but knowing these two I knew they wouldn't be quiet for this long, and reluctantly I opened my eyes again, seeing them staring of someonwhere, my eyes followed there's, and the good mood I didn't even relize I had, dropped, seeing Amy reaching up for Andrea, I instantly became tense seeing as she wasn't doing anything about it, just talking to her
The tree of us began walking forward, all taking out our guns as they stood either side of me, but the sound of the gunshot caused me to flinch and I felt rick grab my arm protectively
It didn't take long for the dread and grief to ring threw the whole camp, the little bonding we had moments ago flew out the window as I noticed Shane and rick giving each others those looks again
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We where not able to burry everyone, me and Shane and rick where digging the holes deeper, from where I was I could see Shane snd rick arguing, and I just rolled my eyes and began digging more harshly
The truck of bodies drove up, followed by the members of the camp, everyone began taking there places, and I walked over to rick
"what was that about?" I asked as the truck drove closer to the holes, tdog getting out, grabbing a hold of one of the bodies
"Shane thinks if we didn't leave, more people would have survived"
I didn't know how to answer that, I've been trying really hard not to take sides, but I couldn't help but want to scream bullshit, but i settled for simply looking to the floor and shaking my head
The burrial was tense, I felt dizzy for alot of it, but luckily clouds covered over the sun, giving of a breeze
I was the one to drive the truck back down, when everyone began walking away I stepped over to it, seeing my family on the other side, I heard Lori and rick speak
Rick bent down to talk to Carl, and I leaned against the truck as he spoke carefully to him, my heart broke as rick promised not to leave Carl again, Carl had tears in his eyes as he walked away to let Lori and rick talk
"Shane blames me for not being here, do you?" I took in a deep, annoyed breath as I shook my head, hearing them continue to speak, I knew Lori didn't agree with rick but like me she wasn't going to be picking sides
I seen ricks face almost brake as she said the CDC wasn't a good idea, she had tears in her eyes as he told her he loved her, and for some reason an unkind emotion ran threw me, I then jumped into the truck and drove passed them as they hugged, not giving a side glance, knowing rick was watching me from over her shoulder
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