Home is Where You Are

Chapter 17

Another three months pass. I'm pent up and sexually frustrated, and Liam and I won't stop arguing.

We literally have been arguing for two months straight.

We try to plan things, but one of us will get called into work or assigned a test. He hardly messahes me back now, and if he does, we argue. I haven't even heard his voice over the phone in a month and a half. I'm at work, bitching to Willow.

"Yes! And then he had the nerve to ask me so what? Do you not want to see me?" I huff. "I was like, well of course I want to see you. It's just, we never have time for each other anymore."

"I haven't seen my family, I haven't seen Liam.

I've seen nobody.

I'm horny, lonely, and sad.

It's not fucking fair.

Now at work, my boss always has on the radio.

So I'm sitting talking to willow, and a song comes on, and I start to tune it out, but the words hit me hard.

Call your girlfriend

It's time you had the talk

Give your reasons

Say it's not her fault

But you just met somebody new

Tell her not to get upset, second-guessing everything you said and done

And then when she gets upset tell her how you never mean to hurt no one

Then you tell her that the only way her heart will mend is when she learns to love again

And it won't make sense right now but you're still her friend

And then you let her down easy

Call your girlfriend

It's time you had the talk

Give your reasons

Say it's not her fault

But you just met somebody new

What if Liam found somebody better?

I've never cried over this situation.

I just haven't.

But for some reason, tears start to fall slowly down my face.

What if he found someone.

I bury my head in my hands.

All my work friends move closer.

"Abby." Willow whispers.

"I can't do it anymore!" I shake my head.

It's kinda quiet.

Nobody knows what to say.

And then fucking the worst thing happens.

The song ends, and Liam and I's song, the one from high school comes on.

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting

Could it be that we have been this way before

I know you don't think

That I am trying

I know you're wearing thin down to the core