Empty Screams (Glenn Rhee xReader)

C9

I don't know how it's possible to miss so much in a meer four days. People are dead and walkers got in... We're letting our guard down.
It's night time right now, the silence is painful. I sigh softly and roll over, "Why are you here still? It's been a week.." I say to Glenn. He sits beside my bed and makes sure I don't go again. "Because. You're not leaving us again. We need you here." I laugh sarcastically and roll my eyes, "Mhm, are you sure about that? I've got the feeling it's more 'Oh, (y/n)... I need you here. You're not gonna leave me.' Am I right?" He shrugs slightly and stands up, sitting onto the edge of my bed. "Maybe I just want to be here. Maybe you've become my only reason I stay... Let me be your reason." I sigh and sit up, reaching out to set my hand on his shoulder. "Prove to me you can be my reason. Prove that you'll stay, that you'll be strong, that you'll be smart. Prove this to me, then we'll see." I trail my hand down his arm, my fingers lightly outlining the scars from who knows what. He bit on his lip and grabbed my hand, pulling me close, "I'll be your reason." He laid back with my body against his. "I promise."

I inhaled sharply and shot up from my bed, it was still dark out... It was just a dream, oh how I wish it was real. I frowned and pushed my hair from my face, I stood from my bed and looked into the mirror. I remember when bags were a fashion accessory and my hair wasn't as greasy as shitty fast food used to be. I grabbed my flash light from my small nightstand and headed outside. I turned on my flashlight and looked up at the sky, "Be strong, (y/n), be strong. This world cannot drag you down. You're stronger than this." "Hey, are you okay?" Jessie said from behind. "Yeah... Yeah I'm fine. Just a... Weird dream that fucked me up... Can we go talk? Like in private?" I sighed, turning to face her. She smiled and nodded, "Of course. Lead the way." I grabbed her hand slightly and led her to the small wooden gazebo. "Jess, I'm in a rut. I don't know what to do. I'm hesitant to trust... Well.. Anyone at this rate and I don't want anyone to leave me anymore... But.. But, Jessie, I think I'm falling. I don't want to and I'm trying to fight it, but I can't! I left and he found me. I sleep and he infects my dreams. He... He's become my reason to stay, Jessie..." I ran my hands through my hair and looked at her, she seemed concerned. I haven't been this crazy since Jack died. "I think I love him."