Where to go from Here

Maybe it isn't so bad after all

  Hwa-Young POV

My shoulders shook up and down as I sobbed. My heart ached with each shaky breath I took. I sniffled and stared down at my feet. Just as I felt another wave of tears coming, someone's feet came into my field of vision. I looked up to see Jr standing there giving me a sympathetic look. He crouched down beside me and wiped the tears from my face. I moved away feeling a bit awkward about what was happening. I hid my face behind my hair since I was too embarrassed to face him.

"Come on Hwa-Young, let's at least get you inside into your dorm." He said.

I sighed in annoyance.

"I can't I lost my keys." I said as I avoided eye contact from him.

He shifted his weight and was on one knee as he dug around his pocket. After a few moments he was jingling something shiny in front of my face.

"H-how... h-how did you find my key?!" I said as a rush of relief filled my mind.

I smiled at me "You left them at the coffee shop earlier this morning, I found them on the table but by that time, you already left."

I carefully took the keys from his hand. I smiled back at him.

"Thank you so much." I said.

He grabbed my hand and helped me back onto my feet. I unlocked the door to my dorm and stepped inside with him behind me. I wanted to be alone so I crossed my arms and turned to face him.

"Yah~ isn't rude for a guy to be in a girl's dorm? You can get in big trouble." I said staring at him.

He scoffed in slight disbelief.

"Really? I just helped you get in here and this is how your going to treat me." He said rolling his eyes.

I sighed in frustration. What am I going to do? I was just completely embarrassed in front of this guy and his friends and now he won't leave me alone.

"Look, I'm not sure if you know this but what just happened back there at the restaurant is not something that I want to relive and I'm pretty sure you being here is not making it any better." I said frustrated.

He looked at me stunned "Wow someone needs to calm down."

"Fine, what do I have to do for you to leave me alone?" I asked slightly worried.

He thought for a moment until his face lit up and a smile grew across his face.

"Meet me at the park across the street at 7 o'clock tonight." He said.

"Doesn't that defeat the purpose of me being alone?" I groaned.

He threw his hands up and smiled.

"Hey you don't have to if you don't want to."

I started to scoot him out of my dorm, the more I began to become annoyed. Just as I was about to close the door behind him he turned around.

"If you change your mind, you know where to find me." He said.

I rolled my eyes and slammed the door on him.

Of course I was curious to see what he was talking about but I still don't trust him enough and I was already embarrassed enough today.

It was later that night when I was sitting on my couch flipping the channels on my tv. The curiosity was burning inside of me as the feeling of boredom grew. Finally I snapped. I turned off the tv and took a deep breath. After all, what do I have to lose? I already lost most of my pride today. I grabbed a plain black hoodie from my things and headed out the door. This time I made sure I had my key with me. I walked across the street into the park. I wandered around for a few minutes with no sight of Jr. It was not until I saw a few groups of people walking in a certain direction that I decided to follow them. Soon the more we walked, the more the sound of music began to grow louder. We soon came upon a group of people crowded around an area. I began to push myself to the front of the crowd with my hands in my pockets. When I came to the front of the crowd, I came to see Jr and his friends dancing and singing. Jr and I soon made eye contact with each other. I looked away to watch the other guys. It wasn't too long until the song came to an end. As I saw what Jr intended for me to come to see, I pushed my way through the crowd back in the direction I came from. Slightly disappointed I was quickly spun around to face someone. My eyes widened in shock as I saw that it was Jr.

"You came, but why are you leaving so soon?" He asked.

I slightly smiled at him "I'm not really one for crowds."

A period of silence hung between us. I cleared my throat "Well..um... I should maybe go."

Once again he stopped me and grabbed my arm.

"C'mon let's go for a walk instead." He said smiling.

I stared at him puzzled. Why is he acting like this? We walked for a little bit in silence as the sun began to hang low in the sky and the sky began to turn into a dark blue. We sat down on a park bench. I began to play with a pebble with my feet when I felt I should at least say something.

"So, you guys did a really good job back there." I said awkwardly.

He looked down shyly. "Thanks, it was our first show that we've done in public."

"Well hopefully you guys will be able to debut soon...Oh... and umm.. about earlier back at the dorms...I'm sorry. I just wasn't in a good mood and I just...never felt more embarrassed in my life." I said shyly.

He looked at me for a second and began to say something.

"Hey~ it's okay, after all sometimes the best lessons we can learn in life are from our hardships. Plus, you shouldn't worry about the little things, you just have to keep your head up and keep moving on. Maybe I need to learn this as well..."

The silence began to hang between us once again but this time it was a comfortable silence. Maybe life here isn't so bad after all.