Where to go from Here

I want to be there to protect you

  Hwa-Young POV

My eyes fluttered open as darkness surrounded me. I could barely see anything except for the moonlight seeping through the cracks between the blinds. I lifted my head as soreness began to creep up on my neck. I slowly scanned the room around me and found that I was still held close to Jr as I could feel the slight rise and fall of his chest. I tried to close my eyes to drift back to sleep but the random thoughts of just possibly everything began to cloud my mind. No matter how hard I tried to shake off those thoughts in my mind, they would always find a way to slip back into thought. I sighed in frustration and got up to get a class of water. Just on my way there I tripped on something and landed on the ground with a thud. A serge of pain traveled up my arm as I have landed on my elbow. Trying to brush off the pain, I continued to walk into the kitchen and i found myself staring at the time on the stove clock. 3:00 am... angrily I swallowed down the water and trudged back the couch too lazy to actually go to bed.

When I got back to the couch that I was once on, I found Jr now splayed out and now covering the entire couch with no room left for me. I grabbed a nearby blanket and wrapped myself in it as I laid myself on the floor. For what ever reason, I somehow found it comfortable to lay on. I stared at the ceiling while sleepiness slowly but surely came over me and closed my eyes.

It wasn't too long after that I was suddenly shaken awake in surprise.

"Ya~ Hwa-Young what are you doing sleeping on the floor?" He exclaimed less than happy.

"It's not that bad it's quite comfy." I groaned whilst rubbing my eyes sleepily.

He scoffed a little and rolled his eyes until they soon widened in shock.

"Yah what happened to your elbow?" He asked surprised

I turned my arm to take a look at what seemingly seemed so alarming to him. When I looked my I saw that my elbow was badly bruised yet it had no pain. I shrugged at him.

"It's okay it doesn't hurt. I got it last night when I accidentally tripped on something."

He grabbed my arm again wanting to check if i was really okay until i pulled it back. He was about to try again once more before getting interrupted by a phone call. I smiled a small smile. I stood up and kissed him on the nose before getting myself dressed and cleaned up.

~Later~

Jr and I haven't talked since this morning. He shouldn't be mad...should he? It was my decision to lay on the floor and it wasn't like I tripped on purpose. I didn't even think that it was that big of a deal.

There were some other times that I was trying to do things but I made a few mistakes. Once I was trying to reach a plate off of a high shelf and it almost fell on me until somehow Jr caught it out of no where and another time when I was trying to move some furniture around but Jr would push me to the side and do it all on his own. Yet, every time I would try to talk to him he would turn away and try to ignore my presence. I sighed in frustration and sadness. Thinking that he needed his space I decided to go the park and take a little walk.

I strolled through the park underneath the shade of the blooming cherry blossom trees with the sun streaming through the branches. I sat myself underneath one of them as I began to watch the people pass by. Couples holding hands, families playing together, runners and bikers speeding in past. I sighed as I cleared my mind of the events of this morning.

I must have dozed off because I suddenly felt my self being shaken awake.

"Yah! Yah! Hwa-Young wake up!" I heard someone shout. My eyes slowly open as I see a panicked Jr standing in front of me. When I fully awake, he heaves sigh of relief.

"Gosh I was so worried about you! Why didn't you answer your phone? What if you were hurt?!" He exclaimed attacking me with questions.

He continued to bombard me with such questions when I just stood up and began to leave. I know he was worried by I can't help but feel like he thinks that I am useless and weak. I can handle myself can't I? Yes I make mistakes from time to time but us it really to this extent? Tears began to cloud my vision and were on the verge of escaping my eyes but I held strong and blinked a few times hoping that they would soon disappear. Unfortunately, that only made it worse. Even just thinking about it caused my heart to lurch. I didn't make it too far when Jr grabbed my wrist and spun me around engulfing me into his strong arms. He pulled me close as I buried my face into his shoulder.

"W-Why are you being like this Jr? You're acting so protective and yet here I am feeling like I'm weak and useless." I sniffled.

He closed his eyes as he gathered his thoughts "I'm sorry Hwa-Young I just want to make sure that you are always going to be safe. Because when you're not in my arms I feel like there's a part of me missing. A part of me that if it is ever lost, I won't be able to live without."

I hugged him back tighter "But I need to be my own person. I shouldn't depend on you."

He pulled me back as he pecked my lips "But I need to be there to protect you now because there may not be a time where I will be able to be there with you and I need to make sure that I can keep you here with me like we are right now."