Scarred Hearts {NCIS}

Chapter 12

Tonys POV.

I leaned towards Ziva's ear

"Eat" I whispered

I kissed her cheek when I moved back from her,

She slowly picked up her spoon with food on it, she just stared at it, Like the food was a enemy. I looked at her, I looked into my loves eyes, I told her 'eat because I love you' all without saying a word,

She put the food to her mouth and chewed it slowly,

She gave me a are-you-happy look. I nodded and smiled, she began to eat a little more till half her bowl was gone.

"I'm full," she said after she was done

I smiled, I was happy she ate. I could tell Gibbs was also,

"DiNozzo, downstairs" Gibbs pipped in

I followed him downstairs, I looked at my Zi she smiled and took a drink of water.

Gibbs had me tell him about the past few days and he asked about her sleep, I told him about her nightmares about Salem and Somalia.

"Your doing an amazing job" he told me "don't let her feel alone, make her feel loved, but take things at her pace"

I nodded I knew exactly what to do now, I loved Zi and I'm here for her no matter what.

Ziva's POV.

After Gibbs and Tony were out of sight, I walked into the restroom, I sat on the toilet seat an just looked down at my arm, I felt my stomach clinch, it was processing the food I ate, I can't eat! Tony can have those perfect girls, I'm going to lose him,

At that point I decided what I was going to do, I leaned over the open toilet and forced myself to throw up. I didn't resort to this much, but I have to, they want me to eat and I, I can't.
I stood up and wiped off my mouth,

"I love you too Tony" I whispered to myself.

I washed off my hands and flushed. I looked into the mirror, I looked at myself, I hated what I had become, I wanted to be a ballerina, not this monster. I don't even know what I am anymore. I don't even know myself, I just want to let people more in. ugh I don't even know anymore. I washed my face off, and then put on a fake smile and went out to meet up with Tony.

"Hey Zi, where were you?" Tony asked me right away

"Bathroom" I reply

He just gave me that familiar look, a did-you-cut kind of look,

"And I didn't cut Tony" I added in

"That's good" he smiled

We said our goodbyes to Gibbs and Tony took me back home,

-that night-

11:11 pm

Tony held me in his arms,

"Zi! it's 11:11 make a wish" he Encouraged

I smiled and closed my eyes, I was holding my neckless and I made my wish.

When he looked over at me he smiled and leaned down and kissed me.

"What did you wish for" he asked

I laughed

"I wished for two things, one was, that Tali could have grown up and could have met you all and had a chance to love. The other, that one is a secret" I explained

He held me closer, she would have loved to meet Tony, haha.

"What about you?" I asked him

"That is classified" he smirked

I rolled my eyes and playfully punched him in the shoulder

"Your playing that card" I questioned

"Well you are still my probie" he replied back

He ruffled my hair, I stared him down,

"You might want to shut up before I find a paperclip" I stated

He submissively smiled, god he is killing me with those looks!

I winked back at him,

"Probie!" he shouted.

I growled

He then grabbed my arms and pined me to the bed, he leaned down and kissed me passionately.

You do not know how bad I wanted him even more at this moment, it was perfect but I really wanted him right then.

He kissed all over my face, chest, and my lips.
I then turned over to pin him down

"This reminds me of another situation" I whispered In his ear.

We laughed and we continued kissing.

"God Zi I love you" Tony said as he laid next to me