Growing up with them

ch.7

A/N

May I just  start out with an apology to all my readers if your still out there. I lost touch with tmnt and well haven't really been keeping up with the show. So with that being said I will make fanfictions and write because I still love the turtles and its one of my favorite things on the planet. however I haven't updated in so long that I hope I didn't lose a lot of you guys. please if your still here and reading let me know. Also feed back in the comments is always welcomed. Love you all very much. Now back to the book

TAYLOR'S POV

Do you ever just stop and think maybe I should let people know I'm alive you like the family that I had left behind? But can I actually call them that I mean after all I didn't exact ally fit in with them and they didn't really like me all that much, so why did I care? I haven't exact ally been in hiding for that long either I mean it's only been three months and well, maybe me a Cody have been more then just friends for a while now.

You see it started after he took me to the library to dig up my past and information that was public records by now. Of course he used those dashing eyes and well we may have had a kiss or ten after that. Long story short we now are in the phase of dating.

Now that you are caught up to speed on that you might be wondering why I haven't tried to tell my family that i'm alive don't worry. that's because I can't believe me I would but since the night I got attacked I have been scared that they would get hurt by shred head if I actually  told them my location.

I doubt they even miss me but if there is the slightest chance that they do I hope that they would know that I would never hide from them unless it was to protect them. especially after shred heads hench men attacked me.

Now your up to speed on this end of things lets go to the other end of things.

Raph's pov

It's been three months and still no sing of Taylor or that she is even alive. I still think of how we fought and how if I had just let her go on the mission with us that we wouldn't be in this mess and I feel like a failure. worst of all I have to look at my brothers face as he deals with the fact that his kid may very well be dead in a ditch some where and no one would ever know. I have to find her dead or living I have to find her.

"Hey uncle Donnie do you know where Tay is yet I really miss her." Sam said as I walked in

"No kid I'm sorry I don't but you know what she will turn up real soon I promise love why don't you go and train with sara and carter while I talk to raph." said Donnie as Sam nodded turning to leave but before she did she hugged me tight

"Donnie look you have to give me some sort of hope here I have to know that she isn't dead." I said as soon as Sam was out of ear shot

"Look, Raph I can't promise you 100% that she isn't dead, but I have been listening to police scanners and none of them have come up with any reported  dead bodies at all , so that's at least a hopeful sing." he said as I sat down putting my head in my hands

"How's Mikey this morning?" I asked and Donnie looked at me his eyes glimmering with a painful sadness

"He got out of bed which was a good thing he's doing better then most days, so at least there is progress there." he told me and I nodded

"How are the girls?" I asked knowing the answer already

"They are doing okay I mean they have been keeping their minds off of things while Leo trains them you know they are all dealing in their own way tell we get a lead." he said with what I could tell was concerned eyes my emotions

"That sounds cool."  I said trying to make sense of things

"Raph, how are you?" he asked and I just shook my head

"Do you really have to ask that question or can we skip over it?" I asked trying to not feel my emotions  and block them out the best I could

"Raph you have to talk some time it's not healthy to keep your emotions bottled up like this it has been three months." he said and a tear drop feel down my check

"Gosh dang looked what you did." I said as the tears came a bit more

"Raph what is it?" he asked me sadness in his voice

"She was supposed to be with us that night you know out kicking bad guys to the curb having fun a enjoying life. She was supposed to be safe that's why we took her from shredder when she was three months old that's why we saved her. Instead I had to punish her leave her here and if that wasn't enough I had too top it all off by taking her weapons away and leaving her defenseless. You know it's my fault Donnie i'm the reason that she is gone. I'm the reason that she could be dead." I said angry as tears streamed down my face

"Raph you can't blame yourself you did what you had to do and it's not like you knew she would be attacked you didn't wish this one her or this family you can't beat yourself up over this." he said and I nodded

"I just need to now she is okay I need to know that she isn't dead. or the alternative  I need to know that she has been put to rest peacefully she deserves better." I said breathing deeply and heavily

"Raph we will find her one way or another don't worry she will turn up. we have all hands on deck right now." He said putting a hand on my shoulder as Leo rushed in

"Guys I just got a text it may be a lead." He said out of breath

"Well read it." Donnie said and Leo looked at his phone 

" it says

Dear, turtles

I told you once before that it was time you learned your lesson how ever your darling little girl is safe. some how she escaped from my grasp. I assure you she is alive and well that is for the time being until I find her. wish you luck in this race may the best ma.. I mean freak win.

shredder

"so she isn't dead?" I asked

"It would seem so." said Donnie and for the first time in three months I felt a little tinge of hope