tylers pov
i opened my eyes and immediately shut them closed again. it was really bright and all i seemed to see was white.
i heard joshes voice, it sounded so far away.
i squinted my eyes open and saw josh, frank and gerard sitting next to me.
frank fell asleep on gerards shoulder and gerard fell asleep on franks head. but josh was awake, he looked exhausted.
"ty?" he spoke softly
"jishua." my eyes were finally adjusted to the bright lights when i realized i was in a hospital room, alive.
"h-how are you feeling" he looked like he was going to cry despite how happy he seemed to be talking to me
i grunted "where am i"
"well i was with gerard when-"
"oh good hes up" a female voice came from the small rooms doorway
she came closer to the bed where i was laying
"hello tyler how are you feeling?" she asked with a soothing voice
"okay."
"im dr. costello you attempted suicide last night on Acadia bridge your friend called an ambulance just in time we were able to keep you alive"
"oh."
she continues to talk but im not paying attention
it didnt work his voice was raw
"okay?" she looked at me waiting for an answer
"wh-what?"
"we're going to keep you here for tonight then you can go home tomorrow. whenever you're ready you're going to meet with a someone who can help you find the right therapist"
"but i dont want therapy" i spat out. i wasnt crazy i didnt need that kind of help
"im afraid you need it. we dont want this to happen again, have you been diagnosed with any mental illnesses?"
"y-yes schizophrenia and depression," she wrote something down on her clipboard
"do you take any medication?"
"no, i used to for insomnia but i stopped"
"how come?" she looked up from what she was writing
"i felt if i didnt stop i would overdose. taking them became triggering."
"alright you'll meet with the psychopharmacologist in 5 minutes ill be back to take you to see him okay?" she smiled at me
"okay" i tried to smile back
-
josh explained to me in full length what happened. frank and gerard woke up and were happy to see me but before i knew it dr. costello came back and now im sitting in front of dr. carson. he has dirty blonde hair and a lip ring, hes extremely attractive.
"hello im dr. carson im just going to ask you a couple questions and then we can find a therapist for you. if you ever dont like the therapist ive assigned you, you can just come back to talk to me and we can find a different one"
"alright"
"so can you explain to me how you got here?"
"did the doctor not tell you?"
"yes but i want to hear it from your perspective"
i explained last night to him from what i remembered and what josh told me about them saving me
"well you have good friends tyler. im just going to ask you some more personal questions now" as if asking how i got here wasnt personal "is that okay?" what if i said no?
"yes."
he asked me stuff like when i first felt depressed or about my schizophrenia and learned about blurryface
"so what kind of things does blurryface say?"
"well dr. carson-"
"please, call me cody." absolutely not.
"he says stuff like im worthless i should kill myself and if i dont try to kill myself he tells me i should at least cut and-"
"have you ever self harmed?"
i felt a sinking feeling. i didnt want to be here. i didnt want to answer that.
"yes"
-
dr. cody carson prescribed me some medication for my schizophrenia and i have my first appointment with a shrink next week. his name is dr. danziger
when i get back to my room my mom is there, she doesnt say much to me and left after a little under an hour. gerard and josh had to go home but frank stayed.
dr. costello came back into the room "frank visiting hours are almost done you have 10 minutes then you have to go"
"but i stayed last night!" he spat not wanting to leave me
"yes because you brought him in. but now hes okay and-"
"no! i have to stay hes my best friend please let me stay" he stood up from where he was sitting pleading to stay
"frank its fine you dont have to stay" i said quietly wanting frank to stay but not wanting him to get into trouble fighting with the doctor
"but i want to" he looked at me with sad eyes
someone came up to dr. costello and said shes needed in another room, she sighs "alright you can stay if tyler wants you too"
"yes please" i smiled
frank smirked at the doctor then she went to the other room
"im always here for you ty." frank smiled back at me victoriously
