letters to him [nh]

november 4th

dear niall,

my parents are making me go to therapy again. they said that its worse than it was before... the depression. i guess i somewhat agree with them.

these are the times when i wish you could hold me. just lay down with me and tell me that everything is going to be alright, even when I know it's not. 

i didnt go to school today. i locked myself in my room for the whole day and stared out the window at the cars passing by. i enjoy watching people carry on with their lives. it has a somewhat godly effect, watching people from an outside perspective.

im sorry that im not good enough for you. i know im no alison carter, but i can treat you well. i promise, if i have the opportunity, i can treat you right.

i hope to see you tomorrow. even though im still scarred for life about what you did to me, and it still brings tears to my eyes.

i love you niall.

-alaska, the girl who is still hopelessly in love with you, even though she still has egg in her hair.

A/N

yoooooo
so this story is 24653345 times better than my last one but its not getting any reads ???
i still love you guys :))

okay well until next time !
love you <3

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