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He is Gone

This chapter will be a heartbreaking chapter if this has happened to you I am so sorry. I know it has been a day or so that I have posted a story I just have had trouble on what to do for this chapter. Should she have a miscarriage? Or should she have the baby? If she had the baby should it have something wrong? I am not sure but I think I have came to a conclusion. I hope you guys enjoy and I am sorry this is such a long A/N also sorry if some of this stuff is wrong with pregnancy I don't know much about pregnancy or if it is possible for someone to get a miscarriage in labor. Also while reading watch the video if you want 💜
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"There is something wrong?" Josh asked concerned
"Yes I am going to do a test before I tell you guys anything because I don't want you guys to get upset or worried and it not be the case" The doctor told us "How the hell are you going to tell us something is wrong and than not tell us what is! What type of doctor are you!" I yelled "Please remain calm let me just do one last test okay" The doctor told me trying not to give me a rude tone the doctor who's name is Adam leaned over to the nurse with him and whispered something to her. She left the room and soon returned with a cart that had a machine on it and a label that said in bold letters Fetal Heart Rate Monitors I didn't know what that meant but I knew It was something bad because Betty had an even worried face on. She walked over to me and moved Josh out of the way and leaned down and grabbed my hand "Rowan you will be okay" she whispered. I didn't know what was going on my mind was racing and I was all over the place my heart was beating very fast. Thoughts ran threw my brain, like what if the baby is sick, or what if I had a miscarriage. No I couldn't I couldn't have a miscarriage this baby has been healthy and I have never been told that Something has been wrong.

My thoughts were interrupted by Dr.Adam saying "Okay we are going to put this inside and check the baby's heartbeat." He told me showing me a stick like tool. He entered it into me and turned on the machine "We will be back in a few minutes." Adam said standing up and walking out of the doors. Once he left I looked over to Betty and saw the worry in her eyes. "Betty What is going on?" I asked looking into her eyes "Sweetie they are checking the heartbeat, they use that device to see if there is one and if there isn't than the baby could possibly-" she was cut off  by Josh standing up and saying "Don't say that." He said I notice the tears running down his face "Don't you finish that" he said I didn't know what she was going to say. I couldn't think about it I couldn't think about what she was about to say I couldn't listen I couldn't hear anything that was bad about my child.

6 minutes have pasted and the doctor still hasn't came back. Betty and her husband were out getting some food for them and Josh so it was just Josh and I alone in the hospital room. The whole time since his parents left it has been quiet Josh was silent just sitting there holding my hand "Josh.." I said weakly he didn't answer he just looked at me and stared into my eyes, I could tell in his eyes that he was so upset so I didn't say anything. A few minutes passed and the doctor finally entered the room and walked over to machine with the nurse right behind him. He ripped the paper off of the machine and reviewed it for a few minutes and turned to me with a sad look on his face. "Doctor what is wrong?" I told him worried "Mr.Grey and Ms.Hart I am sorry to tell you this but the baby is gone."  He replied "What so you mean the baby is gone! He is still inside of me he is still alive. "Sweetie" the nurse said "The baby passed away.." she told me. Right then and there my heart stopped hearing the baby passed away made everything stop. Did I hear that wrong? Did she really say the baby passed. I didn't do anything, I didn't cry I didn't scream I didn't talk I just sat there with my hands on my stomach. I saw Josh get up and start screaming at the doctors. "No that baby can't be gone!" He screamed "That baby was perfectly okay!" He continued to scream "Sir calm down!" The nurse told Josh he sat down and started crying. "We will leave you guys alone" the nurse said and walked out the room with the doctor behind her.  I still sat there doing nothing. I wasn't even crying I just lost my baby but the shock of it was awful. Josh looked up at me still crying with tears running down his face, his eyes red, his cheeks puffy. "Rowan.. Are you okay?" He asked taking my hand into his. I turned my head so I would look at his face. Hearing his voice just made me burst out into tears. I didn't reply he just knew that I was upset that I was hurting that it really hit me that we lost our baby.

It has been a day now since I have found out about Alex, I had already had my c-section. I got to hold him and so did Josh. When I held him I cried the whole time and asked god why did he have to take my beautiful baby boy away. Why me?! Why us?! Now I was laying in the bed just sitting there tears running down the side of my face with my hands on my flat tummy just crying. Josh was with his parents and Jamie and Shawn were taking down the nursery. I didn't want them to but Josh made them so we wouldn't come home and see it, I told Josh to keep the rocking chair so I could have something. We were keeping all the nursery stuff just in case but I don't think I will have another baby anytime soon. A nurse knocked on the door and entered the room interrupting my thoughts. "Hello, i am here to bring you some food." She said rolling the cart in with a tray on top of it. She opened the tray cover and exposed the Jello,Rice and beans. "I am not eating that." I told her giving her a nasty look "Sweetie you have to." She told me pushing the tray in front of me. I pushed the tray "No I don't have to!" I told her "Ye-" she said but I interrupting her "I don't have to eat! I can miss one meal, I don't have to feed for 2 now!" I screamed at her "Ma'am please calm down! I understand you just lost a baby I know how you feel but you have to eat!" She told me with a hurt look on her face. "You lost a child before...?" I asked. She picked up my hand and placed it into her hand "Yes I have 3 years ago, it was a hard time in my life I was close to your age. I am now 23, I was going to the doctor and I went to get a ultrasound and they went to check the heart beat but nothing was there. After I figured it out I didn't do anything I sat and bed and was depressed for a year and a half. My husband now he was different he was upset but he still did his normal life.. he always told me to stop being depressed and-" she stopped talking and looked down "And that it will be okay and that we have to celebrate her life being happy than being depressed. That still didn't help me but what did was seeing my husband leave me.. he left me for someone else. Someone who was not sad and depressed and someone his age. He was 30 and I was 20 he was 10 years older than me, he was my professor in college. I know it is crazy me dating my teacher but when you love someone it doesn't matter." She told me "I am so sorry.. I didn't mean to yell at you.." I burst Out into tears and fell onto her shoulder. "Sweetie it is okay, you just lost a baby I know it is hard." She told me rubbing my back "Now please eat" she said getting up and walking towards the door. I did as she said I only ate the jello and a little bit of the rice. I soon heard the door open and saw Josh. His eyes were puffy and I could see the dried up tears on his cheeks. He walked over to me and I scooted over so there was room for him to lay with me. I didn't say a word he just knew that I wanted him to lay down with me. He crawled into the little hospital bed, I laid my head onto his chest and started to cry. "why us" I asked him "Why did we have to lose our baby.." I asked. I cried into his chest for the rest of the night and finally went to sleep. Josh didn't leave me side he stayed and laid with me until I woke up. "I love you" I heard him whisper before I finally went to sleep. "I love you too" he told me back.

It was the day I could finally leave the hospital. I didn't wanna leave because that meant I would have to go and go to the place where it reminded me of. Alex James Grey was my baby and now he is gone, and now I have to worry if my other love will be gone too. Would Josh leave me like that man left the nurse? Would he leave me because I will be too depressed? Josh was wheeling me to his car I could walk but it still hurt since I had a C-Section. "Ready?" Josh asked I nodded and he helped me into the car. The nurse took the wheelchair and Josh got into the driver side. "Josh?" I asked he looked over at me. "Yes?" He asked "Will you leave me for someone else if I don't get better? If I am depressed because of Alex?" I didn't look at him when I asked that I couldn't I knew I would burst into tears. "Rowan look at me." He told me I did as he said "I would never leave you! You are the love of my life. I don't care if you are depressed for the rest of your life I will always be there for you." He told me I didn't say anything I just kissed him. "I love you" I told him and kissed him. "I love you too, don't even talk like that again" he said in a sweet voice. He started the car and we soon went ok our way home.
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