"Phil..." Dan inhaled deeply, "I think I might be-"
"Gay?" Phil cut Dan off. Dan sat up and crossed his legs.
"Well no, I mean I can't be gay.., I'm not supposed to like guys." Phil was now sat up face to face with Dan.
"Guys aren't supposed to have feelings for other guys, so why do I feel butterflies every time I look at you? Why does my face feel hot when I look at you? Why do I feel happy when I see you doing something cute, I look at you and your like the fucking universe to me. It's not right, I'm not supposed to feel this way, so why do I!?" Dan tangled his hands in his hair and Phil just chuckled lightly.
"Dan, have you ever considered that maybe you might be bisexual?" Dan shook his head.
"But I'm not Phil. I don't understand. Girls are supposed to be with guys and guys are supposed to be with girls. Not guys with guys or girls with girls. I mean don't get me wrong I don't have a problem with people that are gay, but I'm not..." Phil shook his head.
"Expand your views a little Dan, whether it's a straight relationship or not there's still love between the two people." Dan let out a sigh.
"I suppose you're right Phil, but it still doesn't explain why I feel this way about my best friend. I don't want what we have between us to be ruined." Dan began to sob. Phil wrapped his arms around the fragile boy.
"Hey, nothing could ever ruin our friendship. Who knows it just might be our destiny to be something more, or maybe were just doomed to be best friends forever." Phil said jokingly, emphasizing the word doom. He squeezed Dan just a bit, then lifted his hands to wipe away the tears on Dans cheeks. He sighed as he took in Dan's appearance.
"Oh Dan, is this why you barely slept last night." Phil sounded a bit disappointed and Dan didn't know why. All he could manage was a small nod before he rested his head on Phil's chest.
"Well actually..." He sniffled, "I didn't sleep at all."
"You should have woken me." Phil could only manage a sigh after his sentence.
"I'm sorry..." Dan whispers, digging his face into Phil's shirt.
"Don't be, it was nothing you could have prevented. You're confused right now, but Dan, I'm telling you right now if you say you get those feelings around me and I'm clearly a guy, you might be-"
"Gay." Dan mumbled.
"Phil remember when we talk about how I was straight when you first came out?"
"Mhmm..." Phil hummed.
"I'm sorry I assumed I needed to make sure you knew I was straight... That was kind of a dick move. Looking back on it I kind of took the light off your happy moment and I feel bad."
"It's no worries, I completely understand why you did it. A lot of people do." Dan's hand clutched Phil's shirt.
"How about this, we go on a date tomorrow, whether it's indoors or out, and if it goes well maybe we can keep it up? Or if not then you'll know it's just not for you, or at least I'm not for you."
Dan sits up and wipes his eyes smiling at Phil.
"You're such an amazing person, I'm so lucky to have you in my life."
And with that the two laid in Phil's bed watching whatever they could find on the tv and before Phil knew it, Dan was "asleep" on his chest. Phil smiled, Dan finally looked at peace for once on their trip and it made Phil happy.
"I love you Dan, no homo though." He laughed to himself.
"I love you too Phil." Dan whispered ,but Phil didn't hear him because he was already asleep.
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I Am NOT Gay •Phan•
Fanfiction***MAY BE MATURE CONTENT FOR CERTAIN PEOPLE; CONTAINS A SMALL AMOUNT OF SMUT. (WARNING ITS THE FIRST TIME IVE WRITTEN SMUT)*** Dan isn't gay, or at least that's what he tells his-self. He can't be gay, it brings along too much hate that would pile o...
