I Am NOT Gay •Phan•

•Chapter 12•

The curtains dim the bright light of the morning sun as the two boys lay asleep on the living room sofa; the tv now frozen on an all too familiar question. Some tv show neither boy had cared to pay attention too had flickered and danced across the screen of the tv briefly before the two had drifted off to sleep. Phil lay resting his head upon Daniel's chest, his head bobbing up and down with each breath the younger boy would take. Dan's left arm rested atop his head, shielding his eyes from the sun light trying to enter their home. His right arm clung tightly around Phil, holding him in place as they slept. The soft shallow snores coming from each of them echoed throughout the rooms of the appartment. The scene was peaceful, relaxing, quiet. It was perfect. Truthfully the night in with one another was way better than spending it at some party. As much as the boys loved their friends, spending their night in a crowd as big and hectic as that just wasnt exactly their cup of tea.

Phil's eyes fluttered open, blinking a few times before shutting once more. He tightened his grip on Daniel not wanting to move from where he was laying. If he moved the peace would be disrupted, he'd hate to do that. But he knew that soon enough hed have to since his bladder was screaming for him to go to the rest room. Dan's arm tightened around Phil both causing him to have to pee even more but also making him want to stay where he was. He soon gave in and rolled off of Dan to make his way to the bathroom. Dan at this point was now awake and saddened that he was left alone and now slightly cold on the couch. He stared blankly at the ceiling trying to collect his thoughts as he awaited the return of his boyfriend. Soon enough Phil rounded the corner of the door frame and made his way back atop Dan.

"Hey Phil?"

"Yeah?" Phil mumbles into the chest of his extremely comfortable boyfriend.

"How do you know when you're ready? Ready to just not give a fuck about what the world thinks and just to be you?" Dan tangles his hand into Phil's hair, combing and twisting strands between his fingers.

"I think you just know, when the time comes you'll know its right."

Dan nods and moves his hand to Phil's cheek where he runs his thumb along his smooth skin.

"What if i never find the right time?" Dan whispers looking off at the curtains covering the windows.

"You will, I know you will." Phil reassures, grabbing Dan's hand and giving it a light squeeze.

"You're always so positive about things, sometimes I wish I was able to be that way." He sighs sitting up slightly. "I'm always so negative when it comes to things, im surprised you still put up with me."

"You arent always negative. And I dont "put up with you", you're my love and you mean the world to me. Any feelings, thoughts, anything positive or negative im always going to be here for; through thick and thin. That's a promise." Phil glances up at Dan giving him a soft smile.

"I love you so much." Dan whispers taking his hand and placing it back on Phil's cheek. He brushes his thumb along Phil's jaw.

"I love you too, with all of my heart." Phil gently nuzzled his face deeper into Dan's hand and rested his eyes. "I'm glad i met you Daniel." He softly smiles.

"I'm glad i met you too." Dan picks up his phone that rest on the floor below them, unlocking it to scroll through his many social medias.

Many screenshots and memes and fan edits roll along his timeline as he scrolls through his daily feed. He stops as he approaches a picture that appears to be from the previous nights party. At first glance everything seems normal, some YouTube's hanging out, having fun, all that jazz. Upon second glance, resting in the background, noticeable once examined, you can see Dan leaned over kissing Phil's cheek. Dan's eyes widen, he never even thought about the possibilities of someone accidentally catching them in photo last night. Truth be told this wasnt even all that bad, but to a guy who is still learning to come to terms with himself its a bit of a stressful situation. He begins to panic and Phil raises his head, noticing the change in Daniel's heartbeat, to see what was wrong. Dan can only turn his phone for Phil to see as hes at a loss for words during this particular moment. Immediately Phil sits up and tries his best to comfort Dan in any way he possibly can. Dan slowly collects his thoughts, trying to make any sort of sense he can as he mentally argues with himself once more.

"Phil, what do we do?" Dan whispers.

"I can message them and ask them to remove the picture if you'd like me to, it's the best solution i can think of at this very moment." Dan only shakes his head which confused phil slightly.

"No, it's already out there. People probably already have screenshots and fans probably already know. If it's removed wouldnt that just make things way more suspicious?"

Phil slowly nods agreeing that Dan did have a point.

"We could just say it isn't us, deny if we're asked. I mean its blurry enough that we could get away with the excuse." Dan's heart rate is still beating fast but is slowly making its way back down. He's panicked, but freaking out isnt going to help anyones case.

"Do you really think they'd believe that?" Dan continues to stare at his phone screen.

"Well no, honestly probably not. But its what they're going to have to believe until we decide we're ready for them to know the truth." Phil takes Dan's phone from his hand and locks it. Dan places his face into his hands. He can't comprehend that this had even happened. Phil moves closer, grabbing him into a hug and not letting go.

"Its okay baby, i promise we'll get this all figure out." He softly says.