I feel like fucking trash. Im so tired of trying, i dont know, i dont wanna live in this house anymore, everyone in my house disgusts me. My mom is constantly saying how she doesnt want me in the house and how i just bring trouble to her. I dont get it. I try so hard to be the daughter she always wanted. Im so fucking tired of ger trying to make me into a person im not. "Be like this" "dress like that" "oh but [inserts name here] helps her mom and doesnt complain. Maybe you should be more like her." Im sorry. So fucking sickening how my mom wants me to be another person. Honestly , maybe i should listen to her advice and go live with my dad in wyoming.
Oh god, i miss my dad so so much. I have no one to cry to.
And my sister, she makes me feel like complete shit. Everyday she tells me how im ugly, and not in a playful way. Its actually rlly bad. She makes me feel so ugly. My sister is this girl with white skin, blonde hair, hazel eyes, big lips, amazing hair, pretty. Something ill never be. Y was i born with all the ugly features?
I felt good about myself a few weeks ago. But i dont know what happened. I feel ugly again, my confidence dropped just like my grades.
My family is just so awful, only my dad treats me like i actually belong in this family.
