I'm Back And Badass

I can't do this...

Trigger warning self harm involved if you are in any way affected by these types of things please skip over the last few paragraphs
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Micheal and I sat staring back at one another with a look of panic across our faces. I got up and ran out of the cafeteria Micheal, Chloe, and Alex not far behind me. I just ran and ran until I came to the entrance of the park next to the school. I collapsed on a bench with my hands covering my face bawling my eyes out. I can't believe she found out. How did she know what happened? It made no sense. Micheal and I kept this a secret so well. We didn't even know if I was actually pregnant yet and here she goes telling the whole school. How could I let this happen? I was out of my mind to let him do this to me. I love him I really do but what was I thinking. Well I was thinking I really loved him and I knew he loved me too but that doesn't excuse what happened. It was an accident but a really bad one. At that moment Micheal walked up to me and pulled me into a tight hug.

"It's gonna be ok. Whatever happens, you know I love you and I will love the baby just as much. That baby will have the best parents it could imagine." He said holding my chin in his hands so I was looking into his eyes.

"What the hell was she talking about guys?" Alex yelled as he approached us breathing heavily from the running.

"Alex please calm down but there's something me and Victoria need to tell you and Chloe. It is very important that you do not lash out at Victoria everything that happened is all my fault and she is not to blame for anything. A few days ago she and I did some things and I was stupid enough to forget a condom. I know it's dumb and you probably want to cut my head off or something but please not around her." Micheal tells Alex in an attempt to calm him down and fill him and Chloe in on what happened.

"You what?!?! Well is she-" Micheal cut him off.

"We don't know yet. She has to wait 5 days to before the test is accurate. Even if she is I will be the most loving father I can be to the baby if she decides to keep it." He starts to pat my head in a soothing way while he explains everything to Micheal and Chloe.

"Are you keeping the baby?" This is the first time Chloe had spoken the whole time. She looked at me with her eyes full of sympathy and worry.

"Y-yy-yes I am keeping the baby no matter what," I said looking up at her.

"You are!" They all said in unison looking at me with smiles on their faces but worry in their eyes.

"Yes I know it will be hard but I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I didn't. It's just not right to take a life especially of a small innocent child." I made an agreement with myself a long time ago that if I ever did get pregnant I would keep the baby because just the thought of taking the life of something that hadn't even had a chance turned my stomach.

We all sat there staring at one another trying to make sense of everything that had happened today. It was a huge shock to all of us that she had found out. Michael and I were the only two who knew so there was no way she could have known unless she was spying on us or something. Wait that's it! There was a flower in a little pot sitting on his window sill. I asked him where it came from but he said his mom probably just sat it in there to get some sun. She must have put it there to spy on us. That's the last straw. This is war.

"Micheal, take us all to your house now," I said standing up from the bench.

"Are you sure?" He asked me noticing my hands shaking.

"Yes, I think I know how she found out what happened," I told him. His eyes instantly widened.

"Everyone let's go get. I'll get my car stay here." Micheal said as he ran off. I knew he parked close by because he liked to keep his car hidden from the school in case he needed a secret escape. He came back and we all got in the car. It was silent until we got back to his house. Everyone went in and followed me up the stairs. I walked into his room and grabbed the pot from the window.

"Hey what are you do-" I cut Micheal off by pulling the flower out if the pot revealing all the wires connected to the little camera inside of the flower. They all stood there completely shocked by what I showed them. I could barely believe it myself but I knew Alyssa was low but I didn't think she would go this low. I mean really spying on me and my boyfriend all because she wanted something to use against me.

"Alyssa put a fucking camera in your room to spy on you two? Are you kidding me? That little bitch just won't stop will she." The sudden outburst from Chloe startled us all. We didn't know she had it in her to be so outspoken.

"Nope. I can't believe she would do that." Alex said shaking his head.

After a long wait and a lot of crying, explaining, and furious remarks later Chloe and Alex went home leaving me and Micheal alone in his room staring at the broken hidden camera. Everything that happened today left me completely drained my eyes were closing as I struggled to keep them open.

"Why don't you stay here tonight kitten. We will work this out in the morning. Get some sleep." Micheal said giving me a kiss on the forehead.

I gave into the sleep that was consuming me as I drifted off into a stress-induced sleep. All the day's events haunted me throughout my dreams. I had nightmare after nightmare all night long. I woke up screaming and crying. Micheal comforted me while I cried against his chest slowly falling back to sleep. I hated how I must have seemed so vulnerable to him right now. I just couldn't help it. I felt like my life was crumbling before my eyes. I was possibly pregnant at 17, I had a lifelong enemy, and I was failing half of my classes. The only thing I was happy about that had happened since I got back was Chloe, Alex, and of course Micheal. At least I had two amazing friends and an even better boyfriend who could help me through this. I just didn't know what I was gonna do with my life if I was pregnant. I woke up suddenly and walked to the bathroom. Micheal was still asleep so I didn't want to wake him. I locked the door and stared at myself in the mirror. I hated my self right now but for a different reason than before. I couldn't stand what had happened with Alyssa. I just wanted it all to end, everything all the torture I went through before, all the trickery that was happening, and most of all the constant fear that Alyssa was going to do something that would completely destroy my life. I couldn't take it any longer. I took the razor blade out from under the sink and dug it into my wrist sliding it from one side to the next. The pain felt so good but in a bad way. I just wanted it all to stop. I slumped back against the wall crying heavily as I heard someone beat on the door.

"Babe open the door whats wrong?" I heard Micheal scream for me but all I could do was sit and cry while blood poured from my wrist the pain taking over.

"That's it I'm breaking down the door. 1..2..3." I heard him countdown and then BANG the door came crashing down in front of me.

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Authors note:

Hey guys how'd you like the new chapter? I know you all kinda wanna kill me a little right now. How many of you guessed this would happen be honest? This was such an emotional chapter to write because I, my self, have been through self-harm before and it was not a great time in my life. I am in no way making fun of self-harm or promoting it in any way as I said I have been through it and it was terrible for me and everyone who knew. I hope you liked the chapter and sorry I missed yesterday's upload but I will be giving you a double upload today to make up for it so be patient with me here. Hope you had a wonderful day and until next time Goodbye loves.