I realized that I didn't need him.
You weren't there for me either.
Not even the others.
I was alone.
Trapped in my own insanity.
In which YOU all made.
I see you talking with everyone else.
But, not to me.
You hate me, don't you?
I don't wish for another glance.
I don't wish for you to be there for me.
I don't wish for you to rub salt in the wound.
I don't wish for you to hurt me.
I wish for you to leave me, the fuck alone.
I wish for you to feel the pain I went through.
For you to suffer through my hell!
.... I'm sorry....
I always had to conceal my feelings so everyone doesn't hate me...
I'm just a puppet to them, do this, do that, "Oh Alice, what do you want to do? Oh! I know, we could go to the library and study!!"
"Yeah, sounds good" My answer.
Even though I don't even want to study. You know I'm a free spirit, I don't WANT to be stucked in the room, and look out to see everyone laughing, playing, having fun!
But if I say no, you will just get mad.
I'm greedy.
Selfish.
Horrible.
Ugly.
Mean.
And un-talented.
I wouldn't disagree with someone if they said "Alice is such a slut. She's WAYYY worse than Miyuki"
Miyuki and I have the same personalities, genius!
.... I take it back...
I do want you to suffer through my pain.
Know that, you just killed a person.
A classmate.
A complete stranger.
How can you call someone your friend, if you don't even know about them?
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KAMU SEDANG MEMBACA
Sad Quotes
AcakSome sad stories and quotes I wrote, and some from online users. I honestly didn't think that these chapters would mean so much to me, but when I re read all of these, they bring me back to the times I wrote this all. --- #1 in Trauma © 2016