Wasteland Deity

13 Depth

I DON'T THINK YOU UNDERSTAND THE DEPTH OF MY EMOTIONS. HOW DIVING INTO WHAT I'M FEELING CAN SEEM LIKE A BOTTOMLESS SEA. I REIGN THEM IN AND TRY TO STAY SILENT BUT THEY ESCAPE ME.

SO WHAT DID YOU EXPECT? DID YOU THINK I WOULD LOVE YOU IN PASSING? I TRIED NOT TO LOVE YOU AND MONUMENTALLY FAILED. I COULD NOT LIMIT MY HEART AND MY BEING WAS OVERWHELMED.

I CAN'T ACCURATELY EXPLAIN HOW I FEEL WHEN I LOOK AT YOU, HEAR YOU, OR THINK OF YOU. I CAN'T EXPLAIN SOMETHING I DON'T UNDERSTAND. INTIMACY WAS NEVER SOMETHING I CONSIDERED TO BE DESIRED. I CRINGE AT THE TOUCH OF ANYONE'S FINGERS. I PANIC AT AFFECTION BUT I FIND MYSELF NEEDING TO TOUCH YOU.

MY EMOTIONS HAVE NEVER BEEN TAMED. I FEEL INFINITY AND IT OFTEN BREAKS ME. I DON'T FEEL RIGHT WHEN YOU'RE NOT AROUND. AND THAT SCARES ME.

I DON'T THINK YOU UNDERSTAND THE DEPTH OF MY EMOTION.