It was true, I did love him, but what hurt was the fact after this nothing would happen. We'd go back to being friends, or maybe not even that, he'd meet some other girl- maybe a model or actress or singer and date her and I will be forgotten. It sounds like I am a negative thinker, but I just know this is what will happen and I'm preparing myself for the day it does.
We are both sat on the picnic blanket eating Jammy Dodgers and Doughnuts, Nathan wouldn't stop smiling,
"Why are you so happy?" I asked through a mouthful of doughnut,
"I'm just happy that I am here with you with no secrets anymore." He grinned, patting my head, I lay back onto his lap,
"Well that's good then, because I was starting to think you had lots of thing you weren't telling me." I smile up at him, squinting because of the sun,
"Aha....well, maybe there is one small thing." He looked right down at me blocking the sun so I could open my eyes,
"And what's that?" I ask, hopefully it isn't anything bad, like he is moving or he is only joking around when he says he loves me, I couldn't bare either of those situations, I don't think I could cope,
"Okay....two things." He said, he sounded cautious, maybe he didn't want to lose what we had too, "One bad, one good- which first?" He asked, stroking my hair,
"Bad news first." I say confidently, I can handle it, I can handle it, I can handle it....
"Sian is pregnant." He says quietly,
"Oh the girl you were fucking?" I snap, my emotions taking over as they hit like a tidal wave, how could he do this? Nathan- My, Nathan. Wouldn't do this.
"Yes, she says it is mine." He says stroking my hair still,
"Don't touch me!" I shout, standing up, shaking as I struggle to breathe, my legs felt so weak it was a challenge to stay up right, "So I'm guessing you know it is deffinately?" I try to sound calm but failed,
"Well, I know it could be." Nathan said calmly, standing up and walking towards me,
"Well, thanks for this Nathan!" I shout turning away,
"I didn't tell you my good news." He calls out,
I spin around, "Oh and what's that, you're going to name it after me?!" I shout trying not to cry,
"Don't be a bitch! I was going to....I was going to ask you to be mine." He says quietly, with his words the first tears fell from my eyes, how can he bloody do this, get a girl pregnant and then ask another one to date him- I mean how is the mother of his child meant to cope!
"What about the mother to your child? You're calling me a bitch, but I didn't get a girl pregnant and then ask another one out! Are you stupid enough to think that it would work?! I can't believe I love you....loved you. Just leave me alone." I cry, turning and walking away, braking out into a run, not having a clue where I was heading,
"Glory! Please....don't do this!" Nathan shouted from behind me, I stopped, I could hear him running nearer and nearer, then stopping behind me, "Please, I need a friend in a time like this." his voice cracked. How am I meant to chose between being hurt by this and being there for my best friend, I turn around and pull him into a hug,
"I'm sorry Nathan. I'll be here for you, that is what best friends are for." He mutter into his ear, wiping my tears on his shirt,
"I am so sorry for doing this to you, I should of....thought things through more." He sighed, "I can't be a Dad, Ria, I can't. I can't be a Dad....in fact, I have always wore protection with her."
"It could of broke." I sighed, running my hands in his hair, "You'll be a great Dad Nathan." I said trying to sound calm but a sob escaped my lips, he pulled me tighter, and I could feel him shake as he cried, we must of looked a state in the middle of a park crying in each others arms, "We need to find out if it is yours...if it is then you have to step up to the plate."
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It's been a week of touring with The WANTED, Nathan and I are closer than before, but it hurts be every time he looks at me in that way he does when he needs my support. And today he needs it more than anything- today he would find out if the baby was his, it has been 3 months from the day she fell pregnant, so a DNA test can show who the father is. I wasn't allowed to come to the hospital, the girl- Sian, doesn't want some 'slutty boyfriend stealer' there. Which is not true, but there is nothing I can do. I sat by the phone, waiting, shaking, almost crying with anticipation- please, let Nathan not be the Dad- He couldn't cope, he has so far to go and so much potential.
Hours passed, Jay brought me a cup of hot chocolate but I barely drunk a drop. Why did I ever, ever think I could be we Nathan Sykes? I mean, he could have anyone, why would he chose to have me?
The phone rings and I pick it up without hesitation,
"Hello?" I answer quietly,
"Hi Glory." Nathan replied,
"Hey Nath." I say back, "Tell me already?"
"I don't know what to think right now...." He mumbles,
"Oh god...Nathan-"
"It's not mine Gloria." He says, his voice shaking,
"I'm sorry." I says quietly,
"Oh don't be, it's a good thing- it just means, she was with someone else too." He sighs,
"I'm so sorry Nathy." I say again, just wanting to hold him,
"Open the door." He says, I walk over and open the door, Nathan is stood there smiling a watery smile, I hang up, drop the phone and pull him into a hug,
"You'll be alright won't you?" I ask quietly, Nathan is strong, he will be alright- he said he wasn't even dating the girl,
"I will be as long as I've got you." He smiled, kissing my cheek, he laughs, but I could tell he was sad,
"You always will Nath.".
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Hot Chocolate.
FanfictionIt seemed right that Gloria Angelina Heart and Nathan James Sykes should be together, they had been best friends since reception and all the way through their lives. But after everything they go through, will they get together? Or will they just sta...
