New Girl (GirlxGirl/Lesbian Story) [Completed]

Chapter 17

The next day I woke up with a massive headache and stinging eyes. My face felt sticky and my whole body hurt from sleeping on the couch once again. I felt miserable. I’ve never felt that way before. So sad, angry, hurt. There was no joy at all and I honestly doubted if I would be able to act the happy girl like I used to. My whole face seemed to be made of stone. I couldn’t twitch a single muscle of it. After debating whether I should get up or just stay on the couch like the mess I was, I decided to at least try to act normal. There was no harm in it. So I got up, went to the bathroom and after washing myself I went into the kitchen. No one was up yet so I walked over to the fridge and got out the milk to make me a bowl of cereal. I had no intention on staying here today. Not if it meant I’d have to spend time with Sam. My heart wouldn’t be able to stand seeing her. And as if my mind was a magical place that could make anything happen she appeared in the doorway dressed in a white tank top and red boxers. Great. I looked at her for a second before putting the milk away and walking over to the kitchen island where my bowl was. Although I shouldn’t be thinking stuff like that since we weren’t together anymore and I was kind of supposed to hate her, I think, Sam looked extremely hot. Messy but still hot. She had something of the old Sam. The one I fell in love with. At least from the outside. I was so deep in thought that I didn’t notice she wasn’t standing in the doorway anymore. Instead she stood behind me, wrapped her arms around my waist and placed her head on my shoulder.

»Morning babe.« She yawned with that sleepy expression I loved so much. My insides turned as I tried to resist the urge of just giving into her touch. It felt so warm and familiar. As if her arms were the place I was meant to be. But I resisted. I couldn’t let her get to me after breaking up with her just last night. »I’ve had the worst nightmare last night.« She said and nuzzled her face into the crook of my neck. God… This would be so much harder than I thought… »I came back home and you broke up with me. You said you were through with our relationship and with me. I was so heartbroken and everything felt so real. When I woke up I really felt like bawling my eyes out.« Her voice cracked at the end and she took a deep breath as if trying to calm herself down.

»Sam…« I whispered and pushed her away before I turned around. »It wasn’t a dream or a nightmare or whatever you want to call it. It was real. I broke up with you.« I stated. The look of her face was so heartbreaking… Hurt, guilt, sadness, anger. Emotions seemed to overwhelm her at that exact moment and every single one of them flashed through her eyes.»I can’t be with you anymore. To me it didn’t seem like you were my girlfriend anymore. Like I was your girlfriend. It was like you were single and I was the lovesick and idiotic friend that was waiting for you hoping you’d come home alive and healthy. That wasn’t a relationship anymore. I really thought you would’ve been with me just so you’d have someone to hook up with any time you want. Did you really think we could be together with you ignoring me completely, going out every weekend with people I haven’t even met and come home wasted like shit? Gosh! Who knows? Maybe you’ve even cheated on me because I didn’t want to sleep with you anymore. But I guess we’ll never know since you’re always so drunk that you can’t even remember a tiny little detail the next morning. I meant every word I’ve said last night. And I won’t change my mind about it. So just leave me alone. I can’t be near you right now.« At that point tears were streaming down my face again. I honestly thought I would’ve dried out since the amount of tears that were spilling out of my eyes the last few weeks could’ve filled a whole lake. »And please move your stuff out of my room today. At the end of the day I don’t want to find anything that belongs to you in it. Otherwise I’ll throw it away. No matter what it is.«

»But Colby…« Sam choked out between her sobs. Seeing her like that made me feel even worse. I really wanted to hold her in my arms. To rub circles on her back and tell her everything was going to be fine. But I couldn’t. It would only make things harder for the both of us. And who was I to tell her stuff would become better if I was really doubting it? I couldn’t do that. Neither to her nor to me. »I didn’t mean to make you feel like that. Please don’t do this to me. I need you. So much… I swear I will change! Just give me one chance! Please, Colby. I love you…«