05/14/2017
(Last night, I thought it would be perfect... I thought we'd stay up late talking about pointless things like we used to. But boy, I was wrong. Completely wrong...)
Him: ...
Me: What's wrong?
Him: Nothing, it's just...
Me: Just what?
Him: You need to know something
Me: Tell me then. I'm ready.
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(I knew something wasn't right. There's something you're not telling me and I was sure it will break me in any moment.)
Him: ...
Me: Please...
Him: Uhm...
Me: ...
(Come on... Just say it already...)
Him: I already love someone...
That's the reason why I stopped.
(There we go. Ladies and gentlemen, the truth is out.)
Me: I... Sorry.
Him: I should be saying sorry
Me: I'm so sorry...
Him: Sorry, for being such a shithead
Acting like a kid
Me: Haha. Don't say sorry. I was selfish. I was the one acting like a kid this whole time. But don't worry. I already expected this. All I wanted was for it to come from you. All I wanted was for you to say it so I could snap out of it. Haha! Silly little boy. Why did you procastinated? I shouldn't have wasted your time.
(It's true. I just realize that I've been playing tricks with myself. Living a lie this entire time. It feels like reality slapped me right in the face. It hurts.)
Him: ...
Me: It's alright.
(Please don't take it seriously...)
Him: Be okay...
Me: I am. :)
(And the best liar of the year goes to me!)
Him: Stay...
(Wait, what?! What the hell?! "STAY"?! What am I? A freaking shithead?! This boy is driving me insane. First, you say that you love someone else and now you want me to stay?! He thinks I'm desperate...)
Me: No. Not this time. I shouldn't have talked to you again. I wish I didn't... I'm really sorry. I'm sorry.
I was selfish. Haha. Dammit. Okay. I won't ever bother you again. I promise.
(This hurts a lot more than I expected.)
Him: You're not bothering me.
(I know I am...)
Me: Don't sugarcoat it. Just don't. Okay? It's enough. I made a mistake and I said sorry. There's no reason to play games with you anymore.
Him: Okay fine.
Me: This is the last time... I swear. This will be the last.
(The last time... I'm done...)
Him: Okay okay..
Me: I'm sorry I love you...
(I'm sorry I love you... It won't happen again... Milo)
